I seem to always take things too seriously and get affected by stupid small stuff way too much. So hard to voice these frustrations too without sounding ridiculous and just being told to give fewer shits. I'd love to not care but I just always seem to too much.
Two of my attempts at core values are reliability and honesty. Except that obviously doesn't apply to a lot of folk.
I find if I am in a job, my understanding is that I am being paid on the condition of doing a particular task. So I feel the need to do said task properly. I have learnt to only take low level jobs with zero responsibility so that there are no wider impacts for me to use in my head to make this feel even more significant. But I find I get so frustrated with colleagues who don't do their bit properly. I'm not talking people not not pulling their weight but working correctly but slowly, more when they cut corners and are lazy and do things actively wrong which creates more issues down the line (but they get closer to looking like meeting their targets, or hide the fact they are totally incompetent themselves).
Current context is working a supermarket stacking shelves. It works for me on paper in a lot of ways. However I am finding myself getting stupidly wound up over non-significant issues. Mainly where colleagues have just chucked products randomly on the shelf to 'hide' it in a gap - in the wrong place/not the right ticket/price. So to put out my items, I often have to spend extra time rearranging things. I know this is minimum wage slave stuff and so so insignificant. Which then sets off internal spirals for me beating myself up that I am getting so frustrated at such small things.
If I am being paid to do something then I feel the need to do it 'properly' - yes there will be honest mistakes but not to the level I keep finding from others. (E.g finding entire boxes of out of date bacon/sausages on the shop floor that hadn't been rotated because they'd been shoved in the back of the wrong place - some even weeks out of date).
Dunno what I'm trying to achieve here. Probably part venting but part wanting to try getting some understanding.
- Folk who also are in minimum wage slave jobs, how do you not feel bad for actively cutting corners (if you do) when you know it will impact a fellow minimum wage slave colleague? Or is it a 'looking-after-number-one' thing? Surviving the mess that is the world where big bosses far removed from the job itself set unobtainable targets and the conveyor belt will never slow down or stop for anyone to catch up - but the bosses get their bigger and bigger profits. Further context - we are mega short staffed across the whole store and so everything is some compromise or another
- Where has the value of helping each other/teamwork seem to have gone? I feel like its rarer and rarer to find the 'you scratch my back, I'll scratch yours' mentality any more.
- Any tips for trying to break the cycle of small frustrations rapidly turning into massive spirals beating myself up? (Had to walk off the shop floor last night and get a coffee/change of scenery to stop bursting into tears or walking out feeling totally incompetent when I think I'm fine, just slow so not meeting targets/expectations which are impossible).
Two of my attempts at core values are reliability and honesty. Except that obviously doesn't apply to a lot of folk.
I find if I am in a job, my understanding is that I am being paid on the condition of doing a particular task. So I feel the need to do said task properly. I have learnt to only take low level jobs with zero responsibility so that there are no wider impacts for me to use in my head to make this feel even more significant. But I find I get so frustrated with colleagues who don't do their bit properly. I'm not talking people not not pulling their weight but working correctly but slowly, more when they cut corners and are lazy and do things actively wrong which creates more issues down the line (but they get closer to looking like meeting their targets, or hide the fact they are totally incompetent themselves).
Current context is working a supermarket stacking shelves. It works for me on paper in a lot of ways. However I am finding myself getting stupidly wound up over non-significant issues. Mainly where colleagues have just chucked products randomly on the shelf to 'hide' it in a gap - in the wrong place/not the right ticket/price. So to put out my items, I often have to spend extra time rearranging things. I know this is minimum wage slave stuff and so so insignificant. Which then sets off internal spirals for me beating myself up that I am getting so frustrated at such small things.
If I am being paid to do something then I feel the need to do it 'properly' - yes there will be honest mistakes but not to the level I keep finding from others. (E.g finding entire boxes of out of date bacon/sausages on the shop floor that hadn't been rotated because they'd been shoved in the back of the wrong place - some even weeks out of date).
Dunno what I'm trying to achieve here. Probably part venting but part wanting to try getting some understanding.
- Folk who also are in minimum wage slave jobs, how do you not feel bad for actively cutting corners (if you do) when you know it will impact a fellow minimum wage slave colleague? Or is it a 'looking-after-number-one' thing? Surviving the mess that is the world where big bosses far removed from the job itself set unobtainable targets and the conveyor belt will never slow down or stop for anyone to catch up - but the bosses get their bigger and bigger profits. Further context - we are mega short staffed across the whole store and so everything is some compromise or another
- Where has the value of helping each other/teamwork seem to have gone? I feel like its rarer and rarer to find the 'you scratch my back, I'll scratch yours' mentality any more.
- Any tips for trying to break the cycle of small frustrations rapidly turning into massive spirals beating myself up? (Had to walk off the shop floor last night and get a coffee/change of scenery to stop bursting into tears or walking out feeling totally incompetent when I think I'm fine, just slow so not meeting targets/expectations which are impossible).
thanks so much (as always) for your thoughts 
I've had the misfortune to call colleagues over the years.
Tonight is going much better so far as I'm back in the aisle/section I'm much more familiar with and being left to it whereas yesterday I was in the dept known as being a shit show with a massive delivery to work so several people having to be sent to help me out. So its been nice to be fully left to it tonight where I can do my thing and actually feel productive.
