Help Taking SN the morning before leaving for school

[scrapbunny]

I'm planning on taking a very small amount, like maybe a teaspoon or something. What will the day look like? Will I be able to pass out/ throw up while at school. I don't eat anyways until I get home, just drink green tea and take my meds (vyvanse and Effexor), and we have to wear a mask most of the day at school. Is there a chance something more serious will happen (since I know sn causes heart racing and vyvanse)? I don't plan on trying to ctb, just want to make myself sick

 

[rt1989526]

Why would you do this? You will just be in pain.

Either take the proper measures to end it or don't use SN. Are you trying to make some kind of statement with this?

 

[Ghost2211]

Please don't play with SN like that. It's literally poison. Is your goal to have those around you see you need help?

 

[Hydration]

Please don't do this. If your goal is attention there are much safer ways to get it. SN is a literal poison.

 

[almost_dead]

I'm planning on taking a very small amount, like maybe a teaspoon or something. What will the day look like? Will I be able to pass out/ throw up while at school. I don't eat anyways until I get home, just drink green tea and take my meds (vyvanse and Effexor), and we have to wear a mask most of the day at school. Is there a chance something more serious will happen (since I know sn causes heart racing and vyvanse)? I don't plan on trying to ctb, just want to make myself sick

I dont know what will happen , but why do you want to make yourself sick and go to school on the top of that ?

 

[Ghost2211]

It will result in them calling an ambulance. You really want to be sectioned just walk into a hospital and tell them you're going to harm yourself. You'll get the same result minus all the painful and expensive medical intervention.

 

[scrapbunny]

I don't want attention, I want to get sick. I know it's dangerous but it's my only option

 

[rt1989526]

I don't want attention, I want to get sick. I know it's dangerous but it's my only option

What is getting sick going to do for you? What am I missing?

 

[Sinkinshyp]

eat a banaba and stick your finger in your throat to get sick it's safer

 

[scrapbunny]

I'm planning on taking a very small amount, like maybe a teaspoon or something. What will the day look like? Will I be able to pass out/ throw up while at school. I don't eat anyways until I get home, just drink green tea and take my meds (vyvanse and Effexor), and we have to wear a mask most of the day at school. Is there a chance something more serious will happen (since I know sn causes heart racing and vyvanse)? I don't plan on trying to ctb, just want to make myself sick

I should add this isn't to get attention/ make a statement or anything like that, I want to get sick. I know it's dangerous and quite frankly stupid as hell, but I don't have access to pills. I wouldn't kms in school, I'm planning for that already at home

 

[almost_dead]

I don't want attention, I want to get sick. I know it's dangerous but it's my only option

is this some kind of self-harm ? Do you hate yourself/Everyone ? Just asking .

 

[Ghost2211]

I should add this isn't to get attention/ make a statement or anything like that, I want to get sick. I know it's dangerous and quite frankly stupid as hell, but I don't have access to pills. I wouldn't kms in school, I'm planning for that already at home

SN won't get you the kind of sick you're looking for.

 

[krsu]

taking too little can result in a very painful experience

 

[almost_dead]

I should add this isn't to get attention/ make a statement or anything like that, I want to get sick. I know it's dangerous and quite frankly stupid as hell, but I don't have access to pills. I wouldn't kms in school, I'm planning for that already at home

sending lot of hugs to you , hope you get what you are looking for .

 

[scrapbunny]

What is getting sick going to do for you? What am I missing?

Suffer/ get me sent home

 

[krsu]

Suffer/ get me sent home

it will get you more than sent home, dont do this please

 

[Ghost2211]

Suffer/ get me sent home

Eat a spoon or two of soap? It won't destroy you, but it'll make you vomit, belly ache, and diarrhea.

Edit: mad face react all you like. I offered a non lethal
non damaging way to get the desired result. Way better than poison.

 

[scrapbunny]

is this some kind of self-harm ? Do you hate yourself/Everyone ? Just asking .

I guess it's another way of self harm since I don't have access to knives, I'm used to taking pills to make myself feel sick but I don't have access anymore (you can assume why). Yeah I hate myself, don't hate everyone around me though

 

[Ghost2211]

I guess it's another way of self harm since I don't have access to knives, I'm used to taking pills to make myself feel sick but I don't have access anymore (you can assume why). Yeah I hate myself, don't hate everyone around me though

External forms of self harm are better long term than internal. Try to use pins or something instead of eating things to get sick. I know self harm is habitual and can't just be stopped.

 

[scrapbunny]

taking too little can result in a very painful experience

What sort of painful experience? All I really know off the top of my head is nausea, vomiting, tachycardia, headache

 

[Ghost2211]

What sort of painful experience? All I really know off the top of my head is nausea, vomiting, tachycardia, headache

You might dose it wrong and have loss of consciousness or respiratory distress.

 

[krsu]

What sort of painful experience? All I really know off the top of my head is nausea, vomiting, tachycardia, headache

there's a reason its suggested to take enough so that you pass out, that's all I can say. I'm not gonna stop you but I'm just warning you because i don't want you to be in a lot of pain :(

 

[scrapbunny]

External forms of self harm are better long term than internal. Try to use pins or something instead of eating things to get sick. I know self harm is habitual and can't just be stopped.

I know but I honestly don't really care about the long term effects like organ damage/etc. , I plan on ctb soon anyways. Also don't have access to pins and can't hide visible scars anymore which sucks

 

[Ready2GoNow]

Small amounts of SN can still kill you, it just takes longer. Whatever you're trying to achieve with this, I'd think twice

 

[krsu]

I know but I honestly don't really care about the long term effects like organ damage/etc. , I plan on ctb soon anyways. Also don't have access to pins and can't hide visible scars anymore which sucks

I know you don't care but possible organ failure is painfully unpleasant beyond anything you have probably experienced.

I have heart issues and I would not wish the pain I feel on anyone

 

[rt1989526]

How old are you that you'd have to get sent home from class for being sick? If you're still a teenager you should really give recovery a chance.

 

[scrapbunny]

How old are you that you'd have to get sent home from class for being sick? If you're still a teenager you should really give recovery a chance.

I'm 18 but dealt with this for a very long time, I've tried recovering many times before as I've dealt with this for a very long time. I'd rather not deal with this sort of thing for 10 more years and then decide to ctb. But I'd rather not cause a scene/ risk my SN being found anyways so I'll just find something else and keep the SN sealed until I get antiemetics

 

[krsu]

I'm 18 but dealt with this for a very long time, I've tried recovering many times before as I've dealt with this for a very long time. I'd rather not deal with this sort of thing for 10 more years and then decide to ctb. But I'd rather not cause a scene/ risk my SN being found anyways so I'll just find something else and keep the SN sealed until I get antiemetics

we are here for you feel free to vent about anything

 

[rt1989526]

I'm 18 but dealt with this for a very long time, I've tried recovering many times before as I've dealt with this for a very long time. I'd rather not deal with this sort of thing for 10 more years and then decide to ctb. But I'd rather not cause a scene/ risk my SN being found anyways so I'll just find something else and keep the SN sealed until I get antiemetics

Fair enough.

If you really need an excuse to get out of class, with Coronavirus going on, all you need to say is you feel sick and they'll probably let you go home.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Yeah... I'd advise you don't do that. Lest, you will have a lot of explaining to do when they call the ambulance, with a very high chance of your sanction.