shadow999
Student
- Sep 6, 2024
- 117
Life just isn't the same anymore since my psychosis. I don't have it anymore but it destroyed my life when it was there. I'm ready to end this endless suffering. I have 100 g from DMC. I'm not testing it. I'll put a photo of the bag in the post.
I'm a little worried about the pain and discomfort that may come when taking it, and I feel pretty bad about leaving everybody in my life behind. If I had a button that could end my life I would press it though, I've become so numb, I have no more emotions. Can't feel love and joy anymore. The SN is like pressing the button IMO.
My protocol:
I'm taking the stuff early so I'm just going to fast when I sleep, skept breakfast etc.
I'm taking 25g of this stuff. I have an otc painkiller which I'm planning on taking the double dose of, it's the one that starts with a p. I have olanzapine for an AE but it makes me extremely restless and uncomfortable when I take it so I was planning on skipping that. I have an antacid but I wasn't going to take it. I don't have a benzo or anything for the tachycardia.
Wish me luck. I'll be posting a GBT on Monday when I take the stuff as I don't want to feel 100% alone when I take it.
Thanks for reading and best wishes.
Edit: oh yeah the stuff is so hard but it feels like I can break it up with my hands...using a teaspoon to measure it so hopefully I will be able to scoop it alright. There is a thread here with weight and mass conversion table for SN.
I'm a little worried about the pain and discomfort that may come when taking it, and I feel pretty bad about leaving everybody in my life behind. If I had a button that could end my life I would press it though, I've become so numb, I have no more emotions. Can't feel love and joy anymore. The SN is like pressing the button IMO.
My protocol:
I'm taking the stuff early so I'm just going to fast when I sleep, skept breakfast etc.
I'm taking 25g of this stuff. I have an otc painkiller which I'm planning on taking the double dose of, it's the one that starts with a p. I have olanzapine for an AE but it makes me extremely restless and uncomfortable when I take it so I was planning on skipping that. I have an antacid but I wasn't going to take it. I don't have a benzo or anything for the tachycardia.
Wish me luck. I'll be posting a GBT on Monday when I take the stuff as I don't want to feel 100% alone when I take it.
Thanks for reading and best wishes.
Edit: oh yeah the stuff is so hard but it feels like I can break it up with my hands...using a teaspoon to measure it so hopefully I will be able to scoop it alright. There is a thread here with weight and mass conversion table for SN.
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