survived last night but not for the right reasons

[throwaway_accountbro]

I just didn't want to get out of bed to complete the task last night so I didnt

tonight I already have thesystem set up, I have a few socks toblock out my blood flow once I'm hung so it's hopefully less painful

I have a few drinks so that I'll lower my survival instinct

gonna watch some cartoons maybe, just chill out for my last few moments
I wish I could wait any longer but I can't
I don't want to do anything anymore

I do t want to get out of bed, I don't want to work, all Ireally wanna do is eat and watch TV. Don't have thestrengthor care to talk to my close friends

appreciate all the kindness on this forum

I just can't stand paranoid thoughts anymore. I willalways assume the worst will gappen

well I'm getting rid of the chance of the worst happening

Last night I wasn't able to do it, tonight I'll truly dedicate myself to doing it

love
Goodbye

 

[Weightoftheworld]

No matter what you decide to do, I hope you find peace.

 

[Finished]

I'm so sorry you're in so much pain and I hope you find peace

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I just didn't want to get out of bed to complete the task last night so I didnt

tonight I already have thesystem set up, I have a few socks toblock out my blood flow once I'm hung so it's hopefully less painful

I have a few drinks so that I'll lower my survival instinct

gonna watch some cartoons maybe, just chill out for my last few moments
I wish I could wait any longer but I can't
I don't want to do anything anymore

I do t want to get out of bed, I don't want to work, all Ireally wanna do is eat and watch TV. Don't have thestrengthor care to talk to my close friends

appreciate all the kindness on this forum

I just can't stand paranoid thoughts anymore. I willalways assume the worst will gappen

well I'm getting rid of the chance of the worst happening

Last night I wasn't able to do it, tonight I'll truly dedicate myself to doing it

love
Goodbye

Do you want to acquire help through counselling or medications?
Is that something approachable?