surgery ramble

[amnotreal]

i had surgery on feb 18th. i had decided to wait and do surgery and see if it could improve my quality of life. it did a lot. they found stuff that was unexpected. my colon was all messed up but it didn't need to be re-sectioned. it might eventually need that though. i have been learning about colostomy bags and stuff and wheel chairs and all these things that could become part of my life but maybe never will. i am trying to get comfortable with the idea that medicine and doctors can help me keep living by making it so i am healthy enough and able enough to live.
i thought i had really bad hemorrhoids but it was a prolapsed colon coming outside my body. the surgeon fixed it and removed so much adhesion's stuff and found endometriosis. im recovering from surgery. i need to wait and heal and then decide. i am gonna start ketamine infusions which in the past helped me a lot with ideations. im so anxious all the time. i really want to be healthy enough to go hiking again and

the surgery i had helped my body so much but the psychological impact is difficult and not being able to really exercise at all for a while is really difficult. i couldn't exercise before the surgery because of being sick and now i can't because i need to recover and i guess i am still sick. maybe i have always been sick. i want to garden again.

 

[mesohappy]

Damn that's scary.Sorry you had to go through all that.Hopefully you heal fully and no need for colostomy bag and all that other stuff.Just don't rush it,take it easy and give yourself time to heal fully.How long for full recovery time?

I hope you are back to hiking,gardening,and things you love soon.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I know several people with colostomy bags and they do everything. It was tough to adjust at first, but now they don't give it a second thought. One is a high school teacher, one is a housewife in an area with lots of high expectations and pressures, and one is a nurse. Ironically, the nurse had the toughest time getting adjusted.

My aunt was in a wheelchair most of her life due to polio. The doctors said she would likely not live to age 10. She died at 67.

None of these people are famous or determined to be a source of inspiration. They just kept on and found ways to make their situations work for them. I'm not sure where you're located, but there are more and more wheelchair friendly trails every day. Gardens can be elevated or boxed to help folks reach them.

I know it's corny to mention all these things as if they take away your pain.I'm not trying to act as if your pain is not real or can be quickly forgotten, I promise. I wish all the best for you and hope you heal completely. There's help available if you need it and you can always come here to talk. I'm happy to while away the days behind my keyboard.