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lanahelp

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Jan 19, 2022
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I'm terrified to do it but it hurts for me to be alive. I do
Nothing all day and used to be the most active person. Is there any way someone could communicate with me just prior to the act?
 
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Red

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Apr 10, 2019
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If you need someone to talk to, my inbox is always open… I met a couple of people here that I now talk to almost daily and honestly it's the only thing that gets me through some days!

You shouldn't be alone in any case, CTB or not :heart:
 
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theboy

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Jul 15, 2022
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are you still here?
 
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lanahelp

Student
Jan 19, 2022
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I am but I can't take the pain anymore. I have Lyme disease that went into my brain and used to be a happy and successful biz woman. Professor. Lover of life. I lost so much. Psych meds don't work for me. I was goimg
To try one more treatment and then CTB. I'm afraid I will chicken out and not do it as alone. My friend found a place in Switzerland but it is several months away. I can't believe I'm even considering this as I was never even depressed. But I'm living in hell. How does one actually do it, especially alone? Pain outweighs hope?
 
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lanahelp

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Jan 19, 2022
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I am but I can't take the pain anymore. I have Lyme disease that went into my brain and used to be a happy and successful biz woman. Professor. Lover of life. I lost so much. Psych meds don't work for me. I was goimg
To try one more treatment and then CTB. I'm afraid I will chicken out and not do it as alone. My friend found a place in Switzerland but it is several months away. I can't believe I'm even considering this as I was never even depressed. But I'm living in hell. How does one actually do it, especially alone? Pain outweighs hope?
I feel so close. I don't want to do it. But suffering surely outweighs hope
Now n
 
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Astronauta

Student
Aug 9, 2022
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Estou, mas não aguento mais a dor. Eu costumava ter uma doença de Lyme que entrou no meu cérebro e ser uma mulher de negócios feliz e bem-sucedida. Professor. Amante da vida. Eu perdi tanto. Remédios psiquiátricos não funcionam para mim. eu estava indo
Para tentar mais um tratamento e depois CTB. Tenho medo de me acovardar e não fazer-lo sozinho. Meu amigo encontra um lugar na Suíça, mas está há vários meses de distância. Eu não posso acreditar que estou considerando isso, pois nunca estive deprimido. Mas estou vivendo no inferno. Como alguém realmente faz isso, especialmente sozinho? A dor supera a esperança?
Me sinto como você. Eu costumava ser uma jovem alegre, cheia de energia e saudável. Tomei a vacina da covid19 e minha vida foi arruinada. Hoje sinto dores horríveis, remédio não faz efeito. Perdi tudo , trabalho, família ,saúde. Não quero viver assim. A morte seria um descanso.
Espero que você encontre paz para o seu sofrimento!
 
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takemenowpls

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Aug 19, 2022
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If the time is right it's right. Just be sure, the mind is a funny thing. Takes a lot to overcome the fear of death.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that you have suffered so much in life. It's so awful how life is capable of torturing us in so many ways. I wish you relief.
 

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