Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,188
It takes a day of reaching out and being left alone to really see how alone I am.
I told someone who's supposed to understand how I was feeling close to killing myself _/ would try if I wasn't feeling so sick and. They just... suggested I was having bad anxiety....
I texted my brother that I'm not ok hours ago and he said if things were getting worse physical health wise to call him. I didn't call bc I didn't want to bother him but... gahh it's hard to be alone with these thoughts. Nobody owes me anything.
I uhm.. Im not ok y'all. My health issue has a risk of fainting especially in hot weather/showers/baths and I can barly walk or stand so I was thinking maybe if I made a hot bath and let myself pass out?
But im also considering partial hanging?
Im desperate but physically limited so. I haven't felt this bad in awhile but the loneliness is really what's killing me on top of the suicidality.
This world is better off without ne.
I told someone who's supposed to understand how I was feeling close to killing myself _/ would try if I wasn't feeling so sick and. They just... suggested I was having bad anxiety....
I texted my brother that I'm not ok hours ago and he said if things were getting worse physical health wise to call him. I didn't call bc I didn't want to bother him but... gahh it's hard to be alone with these thoughts. Nobody owes me anything.
I uhm.. Im not ok y'all. My health issue has a risk of fainting especially in hot weather/showers/baths and I can barly walk or stand so I was thinking maybe if I made a hot bath and let myself pass out?
But im also considering partial hanging?
Im desperate but physically limited so. I haven't felt this bad in awhile but the loneliness is really what's killing me on top of the suicidality.
This world is better off without ne.
