Help Summer of festivals (and suicide)

[theSuiCiDalCupCaKe]

It's been a while since I posted here. Thanks to being easily persuadable (is that a word?), I have now been roped into festivals and shit this summer without having any intention of being alive for any of them.

All with my sister and her teenage friends because she feels sorry for me not seeing any of my friends (on purpose). I feel sorry for her now tbh.

Anyone else in a similar situation where they're in the position to ctb relatively soon, but then people keep roping you into plans and you don't have a viable reason to say no?

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate.
When I wanted to ctb, there was always an important birthday or event and I had to procrastinate. Now that I remember, last Christmas was hell!

 

[iwanttodie000]

I can relate. I've lived like that for years. Shit like that kept happening or I kept extending it. I set 5/31 as my ctb date and I intend in keeping that no matter what . at least I hope nothing comes between that date and my ctb and if it does, hopefully I can overpower the thought and go thru with it.