The time has come to say goodbye, I can't go on feeling like I do. I hate living with mental illness and I've tried staying strong and dealing with it.
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Jumper Geo
Life's a bitch and then you die.
- Feb 23, 2020
- 2,910
So sorry for your pain, I hope you have explored all other options before CTB I hope you find the peace you deserve.
randomz
Specialist
- Nov 4, 2019
- 395
I am sorry for what you are going through. Do you want to talk to us about what is troubling you? Have you exhausted all other options to be happy in your life and deal with your mental illness? You can always talk to us here and we will understand you. I hope everything turns out great for you.
What's CTB? I've explored everything and I've been through everything. I was never meant for this world. I know in the short term, it'll hurt a lot of people, but long term people will soon forget about me. I'm easily forgettable.
I have been through this for the last 11 years, I'm tired of fighting, my whole life has been painful from the moment I was born, to the 14 years I spent in care, to the last 24 years. I've been on this mental health rollercoaster for more years than I can remember. I'm just not getting better.
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Jumper Geo
Life's a bitch and then you die.
- Feb 23, 2020
- 2,910
Lol, don't worry we were all new members once CTB means catch the bus, here's a link to help you, https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/acronyms-on-here-for-new-users.6031/ I hope your not in a rush to CTB as there is a lot of people on SS with similar problems who can help.
"catch the bus" - ctb. The bus is...y'know, people don't say the actual word or we'd be popping up on google all the time lol
That sucks, but I respect your decision I am in a similar situation but only 8 years battling it I keep getting worse too.
Wishing you peace man, what method are you going with? People will be here with you if you want.
peace!
I'm gonna jump, easiest way. I googled CTB. I've been battling mental illness since my teens and I'm in so much pain that I can't carry on. I take the medication, I've done the therapies and tried everything. Its gotten worse since my nan died last year. I was doing ok till then.
randomz
Specialist
- Nov 4, 2019
- 395
I am so sorry to hear that. Maybe you will find something else to live for again? have you tried different hobies?
I just don't want to be alive anymore. I have lots of hobbies but no interest. People think this is the easiest decision but it's not.
randomz
Specialist
- Nov 4, 2019
- 395
I know it's not, it's just worth a try. What are the triggers of your mental pain? Can't you do some big change in your life that could help you - like moving cities or finding a new job?
Living with Borderline personality disorder and CPTSD that's the cause of my mental health pain.
