Help Suicide without the drive

[sorrydiceroll]

I am tired of being at war with myself. I understand logically that the progression of my life as it stands will be one of more loneliness, slavery and suffering. I can't see a way around this, so I want to die. But at the same time, a part of me wants to try to live and improve myself until I have a life that is worth living. I am too depressed to work on myself so that side is wrong. I can't seem to find the energy anymore to have these suicidal outbursts that I used to either, so I will continue to suffer until I die.

How do I CTB without thinking too much about it, or having the true motivation for it?

 

[FuneralCry]

It is really hard to die. Many people commit suicide when they are absolutely desperate and they see no other option, this is because our brains are wired to survive at all costs and it is hard to overcome the survival instinct.
Ctb requires planning to work or there could be consequences of a failed attempt. I think as humans we should be able to get access to peaceful methods if they want one, as many people are held back by how hard it is to die. People shouldn't be forced to suffer. If I knew a way I wouldn't be here anymore.

 

[WornOutLife]

Same dilemma here.
To make matters worse, I think it's impossible for me to ctb because if I did, my dad would probably have a heart-attack or stroke once he found out I'm dead.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I ask myself the same question all the time. Maybe it just isn't the "right time" yet. Or maybe there will never be a "right time" and you just have to do it. Easier said than done. That is why I admire celebrities who ctb'ed. Even with the trappings of money and fame they were able to escape.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

How do I CTB without thinking too much about it, or having the true motivation for it?

A good method. That's what is stopping me, hanging and exsanguination isn't exactly something that gets my dick hard. Well, the hanging could, technically speaking.

 

[sorrydiceroll]

A good method. That's what is stopping me, hanging and exsanguination isn't exactly something that gets my dick hard. Well, the hanging could, technically speaking.

Based and harddeterminismpilled.

Same dilemma here.
To make matters worse, I think it's impossible for me to ctb because if I did, my dad would probably have a heart-attack or stroke once he found out I'm dead.

My dad would probably be traumatized too. It's tough to think about even if I wouldn't be around to care after I die.

 

[lanax09]

I'd recommend the pph for easy and painless ideas. it's available for download on the suicide resources post stickied on this subforum, or there's an older version on archive.org because the ones uploaded here are uploaded as screenshots and kinda hard to read.