The person I planned to die with had a stroke yesterday. It's been over a year since we have been planning and now he's in the hospital. He cannot use words properly when I speak to him on the phone. He is saying to give it a few days but oh my fucking god, we were absolutely ready to go and he was ready to get on the plane and now I have NO goddamn clue as to what to do. I can't plan with someone who is literally unable to use words.
I don't know what to do now. I'm too exhausted to try to find another partner. I just want this to end. We had originally planned to use CO but switched methods to SN.
Dear lord why.
I don't know what to do now. I'm too exhausted to try to find another partner. I just want this to end. We had originally planned to use CO but switched methods to SN.
Dear lord why.
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