fox_wannabe
Enlightened
- Jul 7, 2021
- 1,112
Anyone here is dispassionate? Not believing anything is worth a struggle or waiting?
Because I think I have never been so apathic towards life. I really do only sit at home and play video games. I can get and go into the woods and look for god knows what.
The life lacks substance to me, my brain is not working properly and cannot produce the happy chemicals. Every second of happiness is paid with 2 seconds of misery or mediocrity.
Mediocrity, that is my life. Nothing special, If you are special you have to compete with every other special human. I just cannot bear more of this existence. Taking care of myself sucks. Sleeping sucks. Not having a job sucks, but only worse is having a job and having to interact with people.
Not everyone is made for being alive. I think I had enough.
Because I think I have never been so apathic towards life. I really do only sit at home and play video games. I can get and go into the woods and look for god knows what.
The life lacks substance to me, my brain is not working properly and cannot produce the happy chemicals. Every second of happiness is paid with 2 seconds of misery or mediocrity.
Mediocrity, that is my life. Nothing special, If you are special you have to compete with every other special human. I just cannot bear more of this existence. Taking care of myself sucks. Sleeping sucks. Not having a job sucks, but only worse is having a job and having to interact with people.
Not everyone is made for being alive. I think I had enough.