Venting suicide note

[devil]

Hello.
I'm sitting in a park right now and I'm about to start writing my letter. Sad part is I don't even have a plan to ctb yet. I just decided to write the letter first, I'm kinda torn between methods. I don't exactly know which one to go with, I really want SN but I'm broke right now lol. And partial hang didn't work out last time sadly.
Hmm I think my mind is leaning towards jumping.

Sorry for the very random post

 

[Lady black]

Hope you will write a good letter that explains all good enough for your relatives. Do you think you won´t get SN?

 

[devil]

Hope you will write a good letter that explains all good enough for your relatives. Do you think you won´t get SN?

Hopefully I can get it. It'll make all of this easier

 

[Lady black]

I hope so for you. Why do you think you won´t get it?

 

[devil]

I hope so for you. Why do you think you won´t get it?

Well due to the virus, I have no job. So I have no money right now and the money I do get I have to put towards bills. Honestly I'm probably just gonna say screw the bills and put the money towards SN once I get paid from unemployment lol.

 

[Lady black]

Oh so sorry for that. I wish everything would be easier now. This virus is real shit for nearly everyone. You lost your job cause of corona? That´s so sad. So many people loose their jobs now. I think there are also many suicides cause of financial problems now.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I got a lot out of writing and rewriting suicide letters. Revealed things I needed to know and wasn't expecting. For me it was about much more than the letters. Hope it's a good process for you, whether it's revelatory, or even just one less thing to worry about.

 

[devil]

Oh so sorry for that. I wish everything would be easier now. This virus is real shit for nearly everyone. You lost your job cause of corona? That´s so sad. So many people loose their jobs now. I think there are also many suicides cause of financial problems now.

Yeah it sucks. That's part of the reason why I want to ctb. I'm mentally drained from all of it.

 

[Lady black]

I wish I could help you with your problems, but actually it seems nobody could help really...So if there´s no money for SN you should maybe think about full suspension

 

[devil]

you can't afford SN? is'nt it like 20 dollars on amazon?

Like I said previously, I have no job and no money at all.

 

[devil]

Well on the bright side, you seem to be able to get free internet, food, and shelter judging by the fact that you have no money at all, that's a talent most don't have.

wow, you seem to know me more than i know myself. tell me, what was your reason for joining this forum? was it... to be an asshole to people who are struggling or to judge people when you have no idea what the hell is going on in someone's life?

 

[Lady black]

Such people should be banned. Nobody should act like jsmith43218.

 

[Black kettle]

So...I'm not sure why that guy with the generic name with 43218 behind his name is being so flippant.... but! - back to the original post...

Write your letter, it may bring u some peace. Put all your thoughts out there. The method may not matter at this point but tomorrow, the letter you write may give you some clarity and peace ✌
Ah- he's new here and perhaps brings some animosity or in the very least- sarcasm that no one is interested in

 

[Isittimetogonola]

Even though I do not plan to ctb for a bit, for me, writing my letters has been very cathartic. It brings me peace and I can express myself without judgement. My letters are a work in progress and with each edit become more what is in my heart. I hope just by even beginning your letter that it brings you peace and understanding. Once my mind clears one hurdle, I am free to work on my method. Sending all peace and love to you. Please feel free to PM anytime.

 

[Lady black]

jsmith43218
It seems you are a troll. I hope you will be banned soon. Why are you here? Just to annoy others?

 

[devil]

jsmith43218
It seems you are a troll. I hope you will be banned soon. Why are you here? Just to annoy others?

Yep

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Hilarious. I did a hmph! react on his abusive post here, so he put one on this post of mine in another thread:

Diazepam (Valium) is slow-acting and taking more does not make it kick in faster. It starts kicking in at 20 min but doesn't really start doing its thing until after an hour or more. So it would be good to combine with a short-acting benzo.

I thought only adults were allowed on SS.

 

[devil]

Hmm he deleted his posts

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Hmm he deleted his posts

More likely the mods did.

 

[devil]

Do you losers really not have 20 dollars to your name? Best leave that unanswered.

lady black, the pathetic black widow. lives such a miserable life but is too much of a pussy to kill herself. pathetic.

I don't remember me saying you could continue to write on my thread. Goodbye, go be annoying somewhere else.

 

[Yomyom]

Seems like the mods deleted his messages again, I wonder how many times he will try to insult people here until they band him.

As for your post- none of them are my methods, and I have a huge Fear of hights, but I wish you Peace
Hugs

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

He's banned.

 

[devil]

He's banned.

Yayyy