Discussion Suicide letter or Suicide video?

[TheGoodGuy]

What do you think would be best and why? A suicide letter or a video explaining why you wanna kill yourself?

 

[stormrOzzy]

What do you think would be best and why? A suicide letter or a video explaining why you wanna kill yourself?

A video. Because it would show your face, your expressions and that's it.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

A video. Because it would show your face, your expressions and that's it.

I already made a couple videos but consider maybe deleting them and writing a letter because maybe it would be too hard to watch and listen to.

 

[Egddios]

I've considered making a video but ultimately I think my family with the exception of my sister, wouldn't really care. I'm about a month away from my CTB date and this feels like the last grueling mile of what's been a long, degrading journey through the US mental healthcare system. I'm exhausted of trying to convey how hurt and low I feel, so a video may be cathartic for me but yeah, my family won't really give one F. I guess I could make a video anyway, despite it all, for myself. Haven't gotten around to writing my letters yet, it seems to be a daunting task when ones already in the process of crumbling, which I am.

For now, I'm trying to keep my appointments to appease my moron of a psychiatrist, and give an impression I'm "trying" so I don't end up in the hospital. The hospital where I live used to be a more nurturing place but has taken a nose dive and is more prison-like. I'm done with being treated like a criminal, you know?

My partner has distanced himself from me, which I understand. He'd like to see me not give up, but I don't look at it that way, because I know what I've gone through, know I've tried and realize depression and PTSD will haunt me as long as I'm living. In death, I will finally be at peace.

This hasn't been an easy journey at all but I'm relieved my day is coming and the pain will end.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Haven't gotten around to writing my letters yet, it seems to be a daunting task when ones already in the process of crumbling, which I am.

I feel the same way I have no motivation or energy to write it, I actually had 2 pages written on my PC desktop I wrote weeks ago but then my computer decided to crash and lost everything so while I was out visiting some places from my childhood in the beautiful warm summer weather I just sad on the grass and decided to record my reasons why but I am considering maybe writing a suicide letter instead and deleting the videos.

It´s annoying I didn´t put a poll in because now I can´t and no one seems to post on this thread and I am ctb tonight so I don´t have much time.

 

[spanishguy22]

Nothing because IDGAF about other people after im gone. The only people that would care already know why, they know how depressed I am.

 

[elcade]

i told already to my closest family they know already why and it was the best way to do for me because i have so much to say and explain to them a letter wasn't enough
i will prepare some letters for the others tho
video will be too much difficult for me and also ill forget something for sure

 

[stormrOzzy]

I already made a couple videos but consider maybe deleting them and writing a letter because maybe it would be too hard to watch and listen to.

Both letter and video ... will be difficult both! I also believe that the idea of video seems better

 

[TheGoodGuy]

i told already to my closest family they know already why and it was the best way to do for me because i have so much to say and explain to them a letter wasn't enough
i will prepare some letters for the others tho
video will be too much difficult for me and also ill forget something for sure

Yeah my parents and siblings know too but still I wanna just lay it out there.

Both letter and video ... will be difficult both! I also believe that the idea of video seems better

I guess I will write a letter too.

 

[Donewitheverything]

A letter as I'm trash at speaking sometimes. Not to mention, I don't have to worry about saying the wrong thing as I can revise my paper as many times as I'd like.

 

[TAW122]

I would go with both, a video would show my face as well as my voice and that may be for the more personal notes while a letter/email is for the more distant people that I want to address.

 

[Death_is_Escape]

I plan to write a generic letter to various persons informing them that I murdered Myself; hopefully they won't waste taxpayers' money investigating the cause of My death as a possible homicide.

 

[Haku]

Even though the only person I have left in my life already knows I'm going to ctb, I still feel like doing something, witch I will be going the video route, mostly just apologizing to this person, and telling them where I want my things to go, like giving some things away, and having this person sell the rest and keep the money. So even though it will not be a surprise, still want to say some things that I didnt get to say in person, or that I couldn't say in person.

 

[binturong]

Relatives and friends know my situation, when the time comes I will talk with them, try to find the most convincing and comforting words. A video and a letter with a signature I will write for the investigation so that the police do not bother relatives. I plan to go missing. I am very worried that relatives may have problems because of me, but I don't want to be found.

 

[I’vehadenough]

Why would you want to make a video? So people feel bad for you? If you are killing yourself to get sympathy, you are better off faking your death, because after you really die, you can't see who will miss you etc

 

[DoNotLet2]

I wouldn't make a video, because I can't make a video.
I would write a letter just to explain why I'm catching the bus.

 

[JTG1972]

I plan to leave a signed note for the sake of the police not wasting time. Thought about a video but I know my wife will insist on watching it and don't want to traumatize her more than this already will.

 

[GreyClouds]

I feel a letter is better, over the years I've written about my feelings and I plan to leave those out to be retrieved so people have an understanding.