Same here. I'm hoping that I can mentally prepare myself to finally go through with it after a year has gone by. The idea of spending another 30+ years as a wage slave just so I can pay taxes to a government that doesn't give a shit about me, and hoping I might live long enough to retire doesn't seem worth all the BS.
If I don't CTB soon, I'll probably end up dying from cancer or heart problems long before I'm old enough to retire, and if I managed to survive those things, I'd probably end up disabled and chronically ill from them anyway. It would be much better to leave on my own terms and be in control of the process.