Lara Francis
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,627
I feel desensitised to the world around me.
Almost like watching it from behind a camera but still subjected to all the negative and painful emotions.
Along the journey or roller coaster of life, we may find sanctuary and comfort in many things, wether it is our interests or people whose company we enjoy but these eventually become less effective or non existent.
I hate depression and how it has taken away my identity and my life.
It has left me with so very little and each day is harder than the last. I seem to have brain fog in my ability to see a happy future.
Having been a suicidal person for several years and tried numerous medications, I've had enough. Everyone has a breaking point and suicide is the only option.
I don't fear death like perhaps I should, does this indicate that I am mentally prepared?.
Almost like watching it from behind a camera but still subjected to all the negative and painful emotions.
Along the journey or roller coaster of life, we may find sanctuary and comfort in many things, wether it is our interests or people whose company we enjoy but these eventually become less effective or non existent.
I hate depression and how it has taken away my identity and my life.
It has left me with so very little and each day is harder than the last. I seem to have brain fog in my ability to see a happy future.
Having been a suicidal person for several years and tried numerous medications, I've had enough. Everyone has a breaking point and suicide is the only option.
I don't fear death like perhaps I should, does this indicate that I am mentally prepared?.