SinisterKid

SinisterKid

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I was reading a thread a few minutes ago and one of the responses made me laugh. I still am not sure if the reply was serious or sarcastic. My initial reaction was, fck me, if I was not already suicidal I sure would be after watching those!!

Fascinating Industrial Processes?

But then I got to thinking, if I can laugh still, should I really be feeling the way I am right now? Humour and music are what have always pulled me through. In times of crisis, or stress, I reach for music or a good book. Then when I have calmed myself a little, I laugh at myself for being such a penarse.

Its not that I am looking for justification or anything, but is it ok to be suicidal and still retain a sense of humour? I don't see why not. Its a all to brief respite from other pervading thoughts that seem to haunt me day and night right now. It just came as a bit of a shock to find myself laughing at something on a suicide forum of all places.

Maybe I need to go and watch those fascinating industrial process videos to make myself feel like shit again :wink:
 
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I was reading a thread a few minutes ago and one of the responses made me laugh. I still am not sure if the reply was serious or sarcastic. My initial reaction was, fck me, if I was not already suicidal I sure would be after watching those!!

Fascinating Industrial Processes?

But then I got to thinking, if I can laugh still, should I really be feeling the way I am right now? Humour and music are what have always pulled me through. In times of crisis, or stress, I reach for music or a good book. Then when I have calmed myself a little, I laugh at myself for being such a penarse.

Its not that I am looking for justification or anything, but is it ok to be suicidal and still retain a sense of humour? I don't see why not. Its a all to brief respite from other pervading thoughts that seem to haunt me day and night right now. It just came as a bit of a shock to find myself laughing at something on a suicide forum of all places.

Maybe I need to go and watch those fascinating industrial process videos to make myself feel like shit again :wink:
I made a thread about pretty much the same thing, I think it's normal. It doesn't mean anyone is less tortured or miserable.
Laughter-though likely not in its joyous form-seems to pervade even the darkest of atmospheres.

I also find it shocking when I do laugh. Especially when it begins as (or ends) in sadness and tears.
 
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A movie about a guy who is forced to keep re living the same fucking day over and over again. His first option for dealing with this problem was committing suicide multiple times.
 
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This probably sounds off topic, but I use humour as my way to deal with all the problems I have. I might be suicidal, but I'm always the first person to crack some shitty joke about death or whatever. It allows me express how I feel but keep the real issues covered up so i don't have to deal with a bucket load of misplaced sympathy and disappointment.
 
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Fascinating Industrial Processes?
Each to their own, I know --but sorry if I pushed you closer to the edge! On the other hand, at least I made you laugh...
 
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This probably sounds off topic, but I use humour as my way to deal with all the problems I have. I might be suicidal, but I'm always the first person to crack some shitty joke about death or whatever. It allows me express how I feel but keep the real issues covered up so i don't have to deal with a bucket load of misplaced sympathy and disappointment.
Laughing is good for the soul, man.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

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I think laughter is what makes us human. We're really the only species that experiences it. I also think it's normal to joke around, even in a place like this. I find it's often the people who can actually laugh a lot who understand the world best. I goof off a lot and yet have still wanted to ctb throughout many phases of my life. It's really when I stop laughing that I think it'll probably be time to go.
 
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not_a_robot

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I was reading a thread a few minutes ago and one of the responses made me laugh. I still am not sure if the reply was serious or sarcastic. My initial reaction was, fck me, if I was not already suicidal I sure would be after watching those!!

Fascinating Industrial Processes?

But then I got to thinking, if I can laugh still, should I really be feeling the way I am right now? Humour and music are what have always pulled me through. In times of crisis, or stress, I reach for music or a good book. Then when I have calmed myself a little, I laugh at myself for being such a penarse.

Its not that I am looking for justification or anything, but is it ok to be suicidal and still retain a sense of humour? I don't see why not. Its a all to brief respite from other pervading thoughts that seem to haunt me day and night right now. It just came as a bit of a shock to find myself laughing at something on a suicide forum of all places.

Maybe I need to go and watch those fascinating industrial process videos to make myself feel like shit again :wink:

I find it necessary.
 
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