SinisterKid
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- Jun 1, 2019
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I was reading a thread a few minutes ago and one of the responses made me laugh. I still am not sure if the reply was serious or sarcastic. My initial reaction was, fck me, if I was not already suicidal I sure would be after watching those!!
Fascinating Industrial Processes?
But then I got to thinking, if I can laugh still, should I really be feeling the way I am right now? Humour and music are what have always pulled me through. In times of crisis, or stress, I reach for music or a good book. Then when I have calmed myself a little, I laugh at myself for being such a penarse.
Its not that I am looking for justification or anything, but is it ok to be suicidal and still retain a sense of humour? I don't see why not. Its a all to brief respite from other pervading thoughts that seem to haunt me day and night right now. It just came as a bit of a shock to find myself laughing at something on a suicide forum of all places.
Maybe I need to go and watch those fascinating industrial process videos to make myself feel like shit again
Fascinating Industrial Processes?
But then I got to thinking, if I can laugh still, should I really be feeling the way I am right now? Humour and music are what have always pulled me through. In times of crisis, or stress, I reach for music or a good book. Then when I have calmed myself a little, I laugh at myself for being such a penarse.
Its not that I am looking for justification or anything, but is it ok to be suicidal and still retain a sense of humour? I don't see why not. Its a all to brief respite from other pervading thoughts that seem to haunt me day and night right now. It just came as a bit of a shock to find myself laughing at something on a suicide forum of all places.
Maybe I need to go and watch those fascinating industrial process videos to make myself feel like shit again