Discussion Suicide for enlightenment?

[Relief]

I truly believe that dying is the next step in my life. I have no negative feelings towards my departure. I acknowledge that my life is shit (for the lack of a better word) but i do not see suicide as an escape from the pain. I see it as part of my life's natural progression (suicide not death) . Obviously, i'm slightly scared about what comes after but extremely happy as i feel like my body is a limitation for my "self" (i'm not spiritual (or trans) although this sounded awfully delusional). Does anyone feel the same way?

 

[trynacbt]

I feel similarly in that I think I am meant to take my own life. I too feel happy/excited when I think about it, although it's very hard for me to leave certain people behind. I have ideas about what the after life might be, and I'm trying to think of it as a win-win situation... that if there is an after life, it can only bring more opportunity for betterment/experiences, and that if there isn't, I won't know it.

 

[ronigail9]

I also feel like suicide is part of my journey. I'm ready to go. I feel the bulk of my life lessons are over here in this life. I have had many different kinds of experiences to indicate this. I am at peace with it. People do not understand.

 

[AnnonyBox]

Are you Buddhist, by any chance? There's something in Buddhism about distancing oneself from the 'self' and seeing death as part of a journey, I think? I never claimed to be an expert on world religions, though. At least you've managed to be at peace with the decision, we all deserve any small comforts we can find, anymore.

 

[ronigail9]

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Are you Buddhist, by any chance? There's something in Buddhism about distancing oneself from the 'self' and seeing death as part of a journey, I think? I never claimed to be an expert on world religions, though. At least you've managed to be at peace with the decision, we all deserve any small comforts we can find, anymore.

studying bhuddism has certainly influenced me. I have eliminated most of my attachments to things - even my own body

 

[AnnonyBox]

Out of personal curiosity, did you find any beliefs or practices in Buddhism which made you feel genuinely happy? I gave up attachments to just about everything, and yet I still feel mental anguish.

 

[Sickman75]

Out of personal curiosity, did you find any beliefs or practices in Buddhism which made you feel genuinely happy? I gave up attachments to just about everything, and yet I still feel mental anguish.

Ever listen to Watts? Hundreds of lectures in YT

 

[Lokd26]

I feel quite similar about this. I'm thinking that this is the next step in life to not only end suffering, but to begin a new journey.

 

[Zer031]

Out of personal curiosity, did you find any beliefs or practices in Buddhism which made you feel genuinely happy? I gave up attachments to just about everything, and yet I still feel mental anguish.

Same here, dude, actually i have a friend that practice a more espiritual way of living and he says that the answers he was searching for a long time, thanks to that, he could find them. Actually im exploring this kinds of lessons for live more in peace.
I just want to stop feeling that anguish you mentioned, the bad thing is that I was always agnostic and it is a bit complicated to find the meaning of certain things that spiritual paths propose, although that of enlightening does not seem to me any madness, only that I think I should find my own meaning of what that means

 

[Wreck-it-Riley]

I found that organised religion made me very uncomfortable. When i found Pagan practices, i felt so much more at home on the planet. We are meant to return to the earth when we pass. Rich or poor, we all become bones. It brought me to the idea that depression and all the evil in the world is because we are not supposed to live like this. Did you know the average peasant in 1500 worked less than 20 hours a week, and farmed for maybe 6 months a year and was enough to survive for the whole year? They had time to pursue science, art, literature, adventure, spirituality. And as we made the toil easier, we exploited the earth and each other. Now i wont say life was better back then, but humans kinda fucked up and turned us into something we are not. From endurance hunter gatherers, into corporate drones in about 300 years.

 

[Zer031]

I found that organised religion made me very uncomfortable. When i found Pagan practices, i felt so much more at home on the planet. We are meant to return to the earth when we pass. Rich or poor, we all become bones. It brought me to the idea that depression and all the evil in the world is because we are not supposed to live like this. Did you know the average peasant in 1500 worked less than 20 hours a week, and farmed for maybe 6 months a year and was enough to survive for the whole year? They had time to pursue science, art, literature, adventure, spirituality. And as we made the toil easier, we exploited the earth and each other. Now i wont say life was better back then, but humans kinda fucked up and turned us into something we are not. From endurance hunter gatherers, into corporate drones in about 300 years.

You are so right, man, we exploited the earth and each other, and the consequences of that they are showing, living in a unhappy world...

 

[Jengator]

I wish I were as brave as some of you. I'm terribly afraid of dying.

 

[Wreck-it-Riley]

I wish I were as brave as some of you. I'm terribly afraid of dying.

I am so not brave. Feeling it is the right step doesn't make it easier. I still get sick if i look over a two story balcony, or drive in the mountains in winter. the idea of pain and death still scare the crap out of me. but a will to overcome that is a nice thing.

Even just coming closer to death than before has taught me so much truth about the world.

 

[Lucet]

Very intrigued that there is a thread like this, I connect to this in some way.

I have always felt very similar about my imminent choice to ctb, and it really does feel as if this was always meant to happen - almost like I'm fulfilling some sort of purpose. I've always been fascinated with death and have wanted to die at an early age - and strangely now it feels right. Obviously there are other things in life that I would like to do, enjoy, fulfill; but I'm truly just about at that point now that the thought of anything other than death barely provides me with any sort of fulfillment. Death almost feels in alignment for me, tbh.

Personally, I'm more of the spiritual type, though not religious. I believe in reincarnation, but even I have my doubts about things due to some much programming that goes on in this world. I just hope that whatever happens, I don't want to come back to this plane of existence for a good long while, at least as far as time is concerned in this reality.