suicide dream

[Sunoo]

I've never reached any of my dreams but I wish I could get some illness and spend my last few months in hospital laying in bed all day and eating not having to worry about the future knowing I am going to die peacefully soon. I know there are people going through this right now so I feel bad for dreaming about it but I wish I could swap places with them. I feel so tired. I feel so bad gosh It just hurts everyday when I wake up, so much sadness engulfs me in the morning

 

[MidnightCat]

My grandfather died a few months ago.

It felt horrible for me to think but I was jealous. He was fighting death to be with us, however... Everyone understood he had to go and everyone gave him permission to give up.

I wish I had permission to give up. To stop worrying about tomorrow, about what will happen if I don't ctb shortly and about what will happen if I ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really understandable wishing for that, I see those people who know that they will soon be free as being fortunate as they know that soon they will be incapable of suffering. And I also see them as fortunate as it's so unnecessarily difficult to cease existing on our own terms, at least to me it is.