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Paralyzed boy
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- May 7, 2020
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Hey y'all so basically I'm partially paralyzed and it's only getting worse and I'm miserable. Basically every day I can feel My body continuously give up more and more function and now I even struggle to spoonfeed myself. I haven't had and I do not have the physical strength to hang myself because I'm not able to have the dexterity or the strings to tie a proper rope. My muscles have become flaccid and when I try to flex my muscles it's literally just all fat and no contraction of muscles
I support my philosophy has been basically live day today until the pain becomes unbearable. My only option for suicide is I'm thinking with my last ounce of strength take the car out for a drive and ram it in or drive to the nearest highway and jump off an overpass. I've already been on antidepressants and I'm seeing a psychologist but My life is miserable
I don't want to have to wait it out until I'll become bed ridden. I just want to know what the odds are or how best to commit suicide via car crash. I know it sounds selfish but I've already recorded videos and left a lot of notes on my phone which my parents can read understanding that it's not their fault.
I also have loose ligaments in my neck already so I don't know if that would increase my chance of dying instantly or not.
P.S I've lived a very good life prior to my accident and I'm totally content with what it was but living life without prospects without being able to use fingers and seeing a gradual decline in function every day is just not how I want to continue living. I want to go out With dignity not being eventually confined to a bed or being just a floating head
I support my philosophy has been basically live day today until the pain becomes unbearable. My only option for suicide is I'm thinking with my last ounce of strength take the car out for a drive and ram it in or drive to the nearest highway and jump off an overpass. I've already been on antidepressants and I'm seeing a psychologist but My life is miserable
I don't want to have to wait it out until I'll become bed ridden. I just want to know what the odds are or how best to commit suicide via car crash. I know it sounds selfish but I've already recorded videos and left a lot of notes on my phone which my parents can read understanding that it's not their fault.
I also have loose ligaments in my neck already so I don't know if that would increase my chance of dying instantly or not.
P.S I've lived a very good life prior to my accident and I'm totally content with what it was but living life without prospects without being able to use fingers and seeing a gradual decline in function every day is just not how I want to continue living. I want to go out With dignity not being eventually confined to a bed or being just a floating head
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