RedPanda
One day we shall be free from this mortal coil.
- Jul 16, 2019
- 237
Ok, so I managed to actually go on a little holiday for 2 weeks. In those 2 weeks I had no thoughts at all about suicide. It's obviously because my brain was pre-occupied and became reliant on the dopamine fix it was receiving from experiencing a mini vacation.
As soon as I returned back home it only took 2 days before the suicidal thoughts came rushing back in. I'm back on this website...again. Happiness is indeed temporary.
This is just proof for me personally that these thoughts never escape me, they just remain dormant when the brain is preoccupied BUT I'm essentially imprisoned by suicidal thoughts. There is no escape even when you think you're doing fine, you're imprisoned until you die. That is the only escape.
As soon as I returned back home it only took 2 days before the suicidal thoughts came rushing back in. I'm back on this website...again. Happiness is indeed temporary.
This is just proof for me personally that these thoughts never escape me, they just remain dormant when the brain is preoccupied BUT I'm essentially imprisoned by suicidal thoughts. There is no escape even when you think you're doing fine, you're imprisoned until you die. That is the only escape.