Help Suicidal thoughts getting in my way

[Desperate_Soul]

How do you function properly when all you think about is how much life sucks?

When I'm driving, I'll find myself just staring off into space and feeling very numb to everything. Thinking about death, death, death instead of focusing on the road and the cars around me. This is pretty dangerous and I don't want to risk getting into accidents, so I have to force myself to stop thinking about that stuff while driving, but it's so hard to do.

How do you guys manage to get task done at hand without getting all distracted by thoughts of suicide?

 

[Qwsapoik]

How do you function properly when all you think about is how much life sucks?

When I'm driving, I'll find myself just staring off into space and feeling very numb to everything. Thinking about death, death, death instead of focusing on the road and the cars around me. This is pretty dangerous and I don't want to risk getting into accidents, so I have to force myself to stop thinking about that stuff while driving, but it's so hard to do.

How do you guys manage to get task done at hand without getting all distracted by thoughts of suicide?

I know the staring into space while driving thing well. Driving is my version of therapy. It gets me out at least. I have a few podcasts i listen to with headphones on while on the road. Maybe more dangerous but it stops me completely zoning out

 

[Voldmort]

I can't

 

[Pointlessabyss]

How do you function properly when all you think about is how much life sucks?

When I'm driving, I'll find myself just staring off into space and feeling very numb to everything. Thinking about death, death, death instead of focusing on the road and the cars around me. This is pretty dangerous and I don't want to risk getting into accidents, so I have to force myself to stop thinking about that stuff while driving, but it's so hard to do.

How do you guys manage to get task done at hand without getting all distracted by thoughts of suicide?

I'd describe myself as a functioning mess.. no one really knows my thoughts or understands them and it will be a shock when it happens...

I try and distract myself with music or meaningless things normally, but generally find myself driving for hours in auto pilot then getting to the destination and being like how the fuck did I get there.

Unfortunately think the thoughts will always be at the back of our minds.

 

[Ben]

How do you function properly when all you think about is how much life sucks?

When I'm driving, I'll find myself just staring off into space and feeling very numb to everything. Thinking about death, death, death instead of focusing on the road and the cars around me. This is pretty dangerous and I don't want to risk getting into accidents, so I have to force myself to stop thinking about that stuff while driving, but it's so hard to do.

How do you guys manage to get task done at hand without getting all distracted by thoughts of suicide?

Careful! Nobody wants you to get into a car accident :(

My tasks are very minimal at this point. Eat, drink, sleep, repeat.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Careful! Nobody wants you to get into a car accident :(

My tasks are very minimal at this point. Eat, drink, sleep, repeat.

I'm scared to ask, but do you still have that deadline coming up?

 

[NOISYMIND]

It will be 3 weeks this weekend since I shut myself in my room. I don't do anything apart from being on my phone. I simply can't function like a human.

 

[Ben]

I'm scared to ask, but do you still have that deadline coming up?

I become homeless again on the 30th. I plan on leaving that day. If I fail..I don't have much of a life to look forward to anyway..

 

[Taylored]

I don't.

 

[Fucking loving it]

How do you function properly when all you think about is how much life sucks?

When I'm driving, I'll find myself just staring off into space and feeling very numb to everything. Thinking about death, death, death instead of focusing on the road and the cars around me. This is pretty dangerous and I don't want to risk getting into accidents, so I have to force myself to stop thinking about that stuff while driving, but it's so hard to do.

How do you guys manage to get task done at hand without getting all distracted by thoughts of suicide?

I do what you do..

 

[itsallover]

I've been lucky to have an amazing mother who took me in when I got sick or else I'd probably be on the street for a few days and then just had to die. I really feel for people who have families and are forced to keep going when they really have nothing left. My mother works from home and I help her with that but I don't live a normal life anymore. Death and fear are always in the back of my mind. I don't know your personal situation but when you become consumed with death there is almost no going back. I think that's a big reason behind repeat suicide attempts. I've only had a few mostly with overdoses but you just can't shake it. It's like the devil always tapping on your brain telling you to come back.

 

[lostinthedream]

How do you function properly when all you think about is how much life sucks?

When I'm driving, I'll find myself just staring off into space and feeling very numb to everything. Thinking about death, death, death instead of focusing on the road and the cars around me. This is pretty dangerous and I don't want to risk getting into accidents, so I have to force myself to stop thinking about that stuff while driving, but it's so hard to do.

How do you guys manage to get task done at hand without getting all distracted by thoughts of suicide?

I listen to an incredible amount of spirituality based material... its the only way I have found to even somewhat make it through...

 

[Jaded]

Death and fear are always in the back of my mind. I don't know your personal situation but when you become consumed with death there is almost no going back. I think that's a big reason behind repeat suicide attempts. I've only had a few mostly with overdoses but you just can't shake it. It's like the devil always tapping on your brain telling you to come back.

It is it's great you have a supportive.mother though.

 

[deadinwaiting]

I can't

I don't.

same

 

[Escargot Shorts]

it's pretty whack, yeah. if i'm at home, i at least have the luxury of lying down and usually falling asleep (a lot of floor naps back in the day). but at work or driving, it just. sits with me. and it's like this thing i've tried to explain where is like, super banal things even set me off. I overanalyzed a billboard advertisement for a popular chain restaurant and got stupid bummed once, or like, noticed a lot of different stains on someone's pants which made me think about small details of this person's life and got really sad over that. it's a mess. but like. maybe i'm lucky i'm either really busy or really sleepy. that's all i've got for now.

 

[JustLosingMyself]

I can't really.
I've become useless/worthless at work. I just sit in front of my screen. Was sent on sick leave 10 weeks ago, ow 3 in a pointless psych ward stay
I spend the days on my back staring at the ceiling waiting for a good moment to ctb but something always gets in the way.
Birthday this WE. Looks like a good time

 

[Nem]

Since I had a severe reaction to dangerous meds, I have a very tough time not thinking of suicide. It's pretty much constant 24/7 and I just feel numb all the time, I sleep only a couple of hours a might and that doesn't help much either so I'd say it's constant