When I hanged myself I didn't realize I was dying, I thought I was practicing.
Then it got me thinking. What happens when you see an ugly bug that flies in your face? It usually takes your subconscious 1 second
to understand that you might be in danger, and then give you that "fear" reflex feeling.
So, if you can make your subconscious be oblivious to your environment and to that fact that you might be doing dangerous things,
then you won't feel the survival instinct anymore.
Last night you slept on your bed right? Why did you do that, without being afraid of anything? Because
in your subconscious sleeping on your bed doesn't = existential threat. So you slept without problems.
If Last night you knew there was a crazy guy in your house that could've raped or killed you if he found you sleeping
on that bed, then you wouldn't have slept on your bed. In that case your subconscious would have thought
Sleeping on your bed does = existential threat.
If you turn off the light in your room, and there are nails on the floor, because you don't know (your subconscious doesn't know either, for all you know they don't exist in the room, you've never seen them in it) you're going to be confident to walk on them. It's not because you're stupid and you want to "confidently" walk on nails. You're smart, and you thought you were "confidently" walking on the floor. if you turn on the lights, that "confidence" will quickly fade away. Your subconscious will think that it doesn't want to walk on nails.
I don't know how to explain it to you, by I somehow managed to make myself believe that "the dizziness" of hanging wasn't dangerous, or that I had power over it.