Hey guys I've been browsing this For him for maybe a week or two And I'm having major dilemmas. Long story short I suffered a workplace accident and it's a lead to a rabbit hole in which my pain was not taken seriously and doctors have refused to investigate further and what was the nationally tendinitis has progressed to tendon gnosis and I'm suffering nerve damage. I have been using text to speech since March because I can barely move my fingers it out triggering pain.However in this past week I noticed that my finger pain has gone down significantly but that's because I realize I left I was gone so gotten so bad that my muscles have become flaccid my neck and barely hold itself up which has led to my spine been slowly compressed each day I can feel each day that my spine starts to burn However in this past week I noticed that my finger pain has gone down significantly but that's because I realize I left I was gone so gotten so bad that my muscles have become flaccid my neck and barely hold itself up which has led to my spine been slowly compressed each day I can feel each day that my spine starts to burn i'm muscles spasms and then more weakness comes. I'm having an existential crisis because of how much damage I've done to my body and I'm scared of what the future looks like. Everyone thinks I'm just suffering from mental and illness and I can't possibly be that bad but I feel the weakness I'm currently starting to limp because I can't get my spine stabilized and I don't know what my functional be. I took antidepressants and they're actually working there working so well that they have made me I want to stick it out and live a bit. However my condition gets worse each day with increasing weakness not to mention I I have two fully torn Rotator cuff's That will not be repaired anytime soon because of Coronavirus and limit the use of my arms to just holding my phone for small periods of time. I'm scared because I feel helpless obviously I've lost my career and obviously Worker's Comp. will refuse everything in their power to to investigate and they say they pay the psychological giving my ultrasound results and they do not want to do an MRI. My parents think I'm healing because I I'm not screaming in pain anymore but the reality is is that the nerve damage have has numbed my pain. My parents talk about My future but I can't even live or even uphold but I promise because I know I'm suffering from such a degenerative injuries such as two torn rotator cuff's where the shoulder tendon is literally at The phone at this point And now I'm having so much muscle weakness Let's find a slowly being crushed and I Lose function each day. I fear that I'll be fully paralyzed before I Know it And will be unable to do anything about it when the time comes. Because of my muscle weakness and To shoulder injuries I'm unable to lift anything past the 1 pounds and I am unable to use my fingers I can't even type continuously a sentence without pain. It sucks because the antidepressants are really working And it's making me hesitant to even consider suicide despite my worsening condition. I think my place my heart is everyone assumes that I'll be making a full recovery I'll get over this mental illness but I'm suffering from physical chronicle degenerative conditions with the possibility of not working ever again is high when my parents expect so much Of me And I'm literally watching myself Physically deteriorate. I'm scared by sticking it out for too long I Will be completely paralyzed with no recourse The problem is I have a girlfriend that loves me because of coronavirus she has not seen my condition my physical condition and she really does make me so happy and only serves to prolong my life as I continue to suffer physically each day. I'm not sure how to proceed because in these days before making this post a plan suicide by car crash And I was super impulsive but because I have antidepressants that has made me more functional and has led me to look up threads seeing how risky it is and the rest of the more disfigurement than death. The only other method I could possibly see myself doing is jumping but with coronavirus I don't know how I will get access to a high enough sky rise. And with how well these antidepressants are working although I'm still depressed and have overwhelming Anxiety from my injuries it Makes the suicidal thoughts so unappealing. I just feel overwhelmed because obviously Worker's Comp Will close my case within the matter of weeks because they want me to go back to work and obviously the hospital does not want to treat me until further tests are done but I'm deteriorating day by day I don't see myself getting any medical attention because coronavirus halted all surgeries. On top of that I keep getting existential crisis is when I think about suicide because of how high functioning I become. I'm scared to stick it out and regret it later when I have so little functional ability that everything will be out of my control. Part of me wants to stop at the depressants and make a full commitment to get back in the suicidal ideation's so I can go out on top with the love of everybody still around me and while I still have function in my body. I thought About partial hurting but because of my significant weakness in my arms I would most likely be unable to make Tight enough Knots on top of not being able to get a rope on top of living in a household with my parents during quarantine. Thank you for reading sorry if it's a lot but for me it's more about doing so much damage to my body that I have altered the course of my health with irreversible and the generative side effects that means I can't live the life my parents want that I personally want and I'm scared that my girlfriend As my condition progress is because she doesn't know what truly is happening to me physically
Hey can you put paragraphs, it's a bit hard to read as one big chunk of text?
autumnal
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Skimmed rather than read your slab of text, but have you thought of asking another specialist for a second opinion?
GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
- Jan 11, 2020
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Nice. OP can't type and is using a speech program. His name is a hint.
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@Paralyzed boy, workers comp is notorious for not wanting to pay out or follow through and just get people back to work. It sounds like you need an attorney. There are attorneys who focus on workers comp claims.
Oh didn't notice, sorry! I just struggled to read it and was getting lost.
autumnal
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- Feb 4, 2020
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Like the other person who responded, I hadn't considered that option. Although he does mention typing, so wouldn't automatically assume he is using speech-to-text.
However, I'm pretty sure speech-to-text and other accessible methods still allow you to break up content into paragraphs etc.
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I'm using Siri text to speech because Of both my shoulder injuries. I guess I can summarize and say basically these two shoulder injuries And work through the pain have resulted in me being unable to use my fingers and shoulders without being inflamed.
However an ultrasound doesn't show superficial damage to be further investigated. I've been using my neck and my toes For over two Months to watch Netflix and communicate and space out paragraphs.
However I realize that using my neck every day do you live on both knees and using my nose To get along just great it's significant premature wear on my Neck and before I knew it I have self inflicted experience in spinal nerve issues because of it.
Right now I am using my nose to Space out the paragraphs so it's easier for you guys to read. I try to avoid it due to realizing the spinal issues that have arise because of it
I think the biggest problem is and why I feel completely trapped is the refusal for the doctors to do an MRI on my shoulders. It's been five months since my accident and the specialist doctor only referral only wanting to do physico. I've done physico But all the effects of it were reversed when I strained my muscle multiple times on Modified duty job with my right arm and workAnd doctors refused to knowledge it. It's so hard to prove soft tissue injuries. And obviously I live with the regret of not throwing a big fit before the pain got unbearable and immobilizing
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GoodPersonEffed
Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
- Jan 11, 2020
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If you're in the US, this is what I think.
First, insurance often dictates treatment. It seems possible to me that workers comp is not allowing the MRIs, or the doctors are worried about not getting paid. I would resarch that with the doctors' practices or hospitals, whoever pays them. I would also contact workers comp attorneys to find out how much workers comp is dictating and limiting the diagnostic and treatment options.
Second, I would agree with @autumnal to get a second opinion, even if you have to pay out of pocket (if you can), then you are dictating the treatment, not insurance. Even for a doctor to say independently that you need an MRI will strengthen your case.
If things are so bad as you say that you are barely functioning, you can't work anyway. You have to use your nose to space between paragraphs. This is not functioning, you cannot work. Even with physio, you are deteriorating. I would document the heck out of the entire experience, an attorney will want you to anyway. It seems to me that it's time to start fighting against workers comp and the workers comp doctors, and start addressing the issue from other perspectives, such as independent second opinions and legal advice.
I guess because I have no concern for my health I'll just summarize real quick using my nose to space everything out. I royally fucked up my life and my health I got into workplace accident in December. Ultrasound didn't show it was too bad But I got continuously worse to the point where I couldn't move my right shoulder. I'll leave all the stupid medical details out.
New ultrasound shows that the superficial damage Is minimal so doctors refuse to order an MRI despite my growing pains and symptoms.
Because of my shoulder pains I have been using my neck while on my knees to type on my phone every day overstrain. It And as a recent I realize that I've caused myself Progressive spinal cord and nerves damage because of it after realizing the muscles around me have gone flaccid. now my body parts are perpetually shaking.
Long story short I know I'm not gonna be the same person I was. But his health problems keep adding up and obviously long-term because of the damage I've done I have shoulder problems self-inflicted spine problems and nerve damage I don't know If I want to stick it out to that point.
Right now I just look like a degenerate off work watching Netflix waiting for time to pass because I can't use my fingers and I have to use my nose to press Stuff on my phone screen. My parents think this is just a mental illness phase and it's all in my mind but reality is my health is not getting better.
I've taken antidepressants and they've actually worked and it stop me from contemplating suicide. but the problem is with how bleak my prospects are And how fast my health is deteriorating Especially considering spinal cord damage that I've self-inflicted LOL I don't know how long I want to stick it out for. Biggest fear is that I become too weak to be able to take my own life. My parents already think that I'm a burden and my sister always tells me to fuck off.
I am debating If I should stop antidepressants so I could be more insistent and more pre-meditated on CTB well I still have function in my body. Because of the antidepressants it's made me so high functioning that instead of wanting to die all I think about his work and my future. For me it's not just a mental illness but it's dealing with the physical suffering of potentially being disabled, being unable to work for the rest of my life, And people witnessing Me become more disabled each day
Thanks for the invite man advice man I'm actually from Canada and when I told my case manager about my symptoms they said that's impossible that sounds like you aggravated the injury outside of work I think we're looking at a layoff. I know I can't work anyways I guess my biggest concern is I can live day today being a degenerate and The healthcare system where I'm from everything is free but is also delayed. I have been able unable to do in person consultation which is why it's heartbreaking because it sounds like I'm the crazy one but thanks for the response man
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This sounds so unfair it makes me sick. I've had that experience with docs too, they can't figure out what's causing the problem with the obvious diagnostics so they give up and effectively blame the patient.
I wasn't sure from your responses...are you getting legal advice? I'd assume that one of the things they'd insist on is a second opinion and a full, detailed case history. If you do that, then keeping everything. Every email, document every call, everything.
And don't worry about the paragraph breaks, you shouldn't have to type with ur nose.
I wasn't sure from your responses...are you getting legal advice? I'd assume that one of the things they'd insist on is a second opinion and a full, detailed case history. If you do that, then keeping everything. Every email, document every call, everything.
And don't worry about the paragraph breaks, you shouldn't have to type with ur nose.
So sorry to hear about your experience, do you have someone who can help you look into appealing this?
Honestly it's gone down the rabbit hole because the doxtor and specialist Assign Led by the workers comp have done a Virtual assessment on me and have Recommended that I just continue to do physiotherapy. On the ultrasound it's only shows I have a partial tear which is why I continued to work until the pain became unbearable. For reference though my work accident happened Due to having to restrain an individual in his body smashing multiple times against my shoulder. I'm not a medical professional but since that incident I haven't been able to lift 5 pounds within That arm and it just gradually kept getting worse. Through the virtual assessment just saying my pain has been psychological and I should just stick with Phyico. I'm just heartbroken because I'm unable to even use my fingers properly without inflaming my shoulder and I think that's not shoulder related any more. I think Worker's Comp Has given me a proper recovery Plan but I think it's too late for me to implement it because I'm at the point where I can't even Type on the keyboard without pain. I wish I was given these work restrictions when I first got injured but what can I do
