At the pool chlorinated water typically, it can be a painful than nature's fresh water.
No aware of your situation, but maybe better don't rushing into it, it often leads to big mistakes. Rather be cool and unemotional, It'll help better understand Is this what you really want now, and if so, spare you of the mistakes.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/drowning-my-method.17545/
Look at the topic. It's not as easy as it looks.