EqualibriumWithin
Member
- Feb 7, 2023
- 25
i dont get it, i cant think of any reason not to CTB.. the more i think about it the deeper into despair i tend to fall, i feel so alone in this mental hell with no way out, i desperately want an out but i just cant find a way out, i dont want logic or rationale anymore, i just want to disappear. yet at the same time i know ill end up alone if i do so, so i end up stuck at a fucking impasse, leave everyone behind or stay and continue to suffer. i have nothing i can use or anything i can take to fix this hell in my brain, no logic or reasoning works with me anymore. why cant people fucking understand that i just want to fucking die. this forum is the only place i feel like anyone even remotely understands how i feel about all of this, i just dont fucking get it. why cant society just accept that some people arent fit for it and let us die in peace ffs, why do we have to be stopped if its something we are determined to do??? just why???? their logic makes no fucking sense, keep us from doing stuff to ourselves yet going against our own desires? it feels so fucked up and twisted, we have feelings too! but they dont seem to give a fuck about that. its all about keeping us safe in hopes of us being fucking happy later on,
so answer me this, if people are so fucking determined to kill themselves over and over again, only to tell the same people the same things over and over again. doesnt that fucking signal that people dont ACTUALLY want to exist on earth anymore? at what fucking point does "i want to die" and "im going to CTB" actually become something people will accept, its so fucked up and twisted...
so answer me this, if people are so fucking determined to kill themselves over and over again, only to tell the same people the same things over and over again. doesnt that fucking signal that people dont ACTUALLY want to exist on earth anymore? at what fucking point does "i want to die" and "im going to CTB" actually become something people will accept, its so fucked up and twisted...