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eternalflame
Experienced
- Mar 30, 2022
- 256
Well this one is gonna be a mixed bag.
I think i'm getting dumber, i almost start my sentences with ay instead of i.
I got fat, i have 105 kg and i'm not gonna lie, it's not all muscle. Full suspension is out of question.
One of reasons for staying is having ill grandmother that took my divorced mother in. She doesn't walk so i wan't to help her but i can't force myself to live for somebody. On the other hand when she had heart attack i wasn't ready to kill myself.
They say people in depression are deluded into thinking that people around them will be better, i actualyy think that my family will be worse until they will get used to it.
It looks to me that people need to force themselves to live while for me it's other way around, i need to convince myself that it will get worse.
I'm low on energy so it's hard to kill myself. I would prefer to do it in the afternoon in my home instead of midnight in the woods but i don't have free house most of the time.
I think i'm getting dumber, i almost start my sentences with ay instead of i.
I got fat, i have 105 kg and i'm not gonna lie, it's not all muscle. Full suspension is out of question.
One of reasons for staying is having ill grandmother that took my divorced mother in. She doesn't walk so i wan't to help her but i can't force myself to live for somebody. On the other hand when she had heart attack i wasn't ready to kill myself.
They say people in depression are deluded into thinking that people around them will be better, i actualyy think that my family will be worse until they will get used to it.
It looks to me that people need to force themselves to live while for me it's other way around, i need to convince myself that it will get worse.
I'm low on energy so it's hard to kill myself. I would prefer to do it in the afternoon in my home instead of midnight in the woods but i don't have free house most of the time.