Stuck in the middle

[Walking Disaster]

I don't know i feel like i'm stuck, i think that without even doing it on purpose i've been living those years in surviving mode without doing nothing to avoid failure. but not doing nothing and throwing away opportunity and life in general create this bubble where i don't feel bad enough to have the strenght to ctb, but for sure don't feel good enough to have a normal life, problem is that the more this "doing nothing" goes on the more problem i will face when i decide to start living my life again and then the worse will come. i really don't know what to do to stop this thing going on, i really can't make a move. depression, being shy and other things surround me doesn't help too.
But i feel like i can't ctb without even trying to do something, that would be really stupid, the problem is how to do something..

 

[LittleJem]

If you can get some, I recommend Phenibut. In all seriousness, it is great for once or twice a week use - and a great mood brightener and supports socialising.

Other than that, if you ahve tried meds, maybe it's worth trying psychedelics.

I don't have any magic answers - only the odd day off on any substance that gives me a day off. But Phenibut is a good substance for a day off.

There are lots of other thngs to try also - Kava, Kratom, meds. Everyone has different things that can help them - so it is worth having a list of things to try.
Can you pause your life and go to a different country for a while? My depressed friend is having a good time in Thailand.

I am depressed wherever I am, but a change of scenery could be great for you?