Stuck in the bargaining phase

[AllTheseQuestions]

If I had done this
If I hadn't of done that
If I had said this

If if if… doesn't exist

The worst part of the day is 2 seconds after I wake up, when my reality comes flooding back and I am overwhelmed with guilt, regret and shame.

 

[boblong]

To exist is to suffer , unfortunately . We can escape 1/3 of a day by sleeping .

 

[sevennn]

you mean you can't accept suicide? i feel the same