HeckingHecked
Student
- Nov 9, 2021
- 182
I just wrote my note. After many attempts, I can now realize that this pre-CTB anxiety is just SI. It's good to know that because this time I will overcome it, whether today, tomorrow, or Monday. Nobody in my real-life will care when I'm gone. They'll be glad that they don't have to cater to the retarded fuck that could never fit in; the one they always were secretly hoping would CTB anyway because it's better him than their friends. Of course, their friends are all replaceable anyway. It's better that way. If they were to be loyal to anyone, than they couldn't always have fun. They'd have to own up to the responsibility of what actually giving a shit about another human-being is like. They're thinking "He's so pathetic and naive for just wanting someone to talk to. Now that I have all his secrets, I can spread the texts around the entire group, get everyone to see them, spin them in a negative light, and BOOM. Everyone hates him, and I get off scot-free. Because that's what I do. I ruin lives of people who can't match my (obviously fake) energy, fake-cry and gaslight if someone ever figures it out, drop them, and then repeat the process!" It's sociopathic, but I guess that's the world we live in. No reason to want to change the unchangeable.
EDIT: What should I say to my best-friend? Should I say anything?
Signing off for good soon,
Hecked
EDIT: What should I say to my best-friend? Should I say anything?
Signing off for good soon,
Hecked