Story Struggle with anxiety/OCD

[stargazer]

I seem to have undiagnosed general anxiety, and obsessive compulsive.

I'm also quite lazy, but because physically I'm quite lean and weak.

I don't bother with the gym, because why would I, and I don't build muscle naturally. I'm white but I may as well have the build of someone from Asia.

I'm struggling to hold my crappy casual job in fast food, because I often let other staff carry me through the shifts, and I'm worried after so many years, they're beginning to catch on to the fact I am useless.

My job prospects for the future are bleak, and even a better job, won't change my desire to leave.

Is anyone else in a similar situation, you're struggling at work, your managing to just maintain your cool facade when it counts (on and off the clock) and you're eagerly awaiting CTB out of anxiety more than anything?

 

[ausboy96]

100% in the same boat.

 

[OkTotti]

at least your working.... but i agree even if found a job and got my career on track. I'm still friendless and loveless

 

[stargazer]

I seem to have undiagnosed general anxiety, and obsessive compulsive.

I'm also quite lazy, but because physically I'm quite lean and weak.

I don't bother with the gym, because why would I, and I don't build muscle naturally. I'm white but I may as well have the build of someone from Asia.

I'm struggling to hold my crappy casual job in fast food, because I often let other staff carry me through the shifts, and I'm worried after so many years, they're beginning to catch on to the fact I am useless.

My job prospects for the future are bleak, and even a better job, won't change my desire to leave.

Is anyone else in a similar situation, you're struggling at work, your managing to just maintain your cool facade when it counts (on and off the clock) and you're eagerly awaiting CTB out of anxiety more than anything?

After the fact some may say I should have contributed to society, but even I don't lie to myself that; I didn't ask to be alive and I don't want to be alive for very much longer. I'm simply, as my statuses and posts show, am waiting for something to come along.

I've done what I can to be proactive and "make it happen" so now, I have to wait.

 

[stargazer]

I seem to have undiagnosed general anxiety, and obsessive compulsive.

I'm also quite lazy, but because physically I'm quite lean and weak.

I don't bother with the gym, because why would I, and I don't build muscle naturally. I'm white but I may as well have the build of someone from Asia.

I'm struggling to hold my crappy casual job in fast food, because I often let other staff carry me through the shifts, and I'm worried after so many years, they're beginning to catch on to the fact I am useless.

My job prospects for the future are bleak, and even a better job, won't change my desire to leave.

Is anyone else in a similar situation, you're struggling at work, your managing to just maintain your cool facade when it counts (on and off the clock) and you're eagerly awaiting CTB out of anxiety more than anything?

Family relationships and work colleagues are also getting strained lately. CTB can't come fast enough