J
JustDead
New Member
- May 21, 2023
- 3
I decided to stop my medication again due to being sick of my parents constantly complaining about how much of a burden my meds/therapy expenses are. Currently feel like shit and hate everything. Irritated, depressed not sure if this is the right thing to do. Texted my doctor what I did but of course I didn't hear anything back (usually never do). So I'm just feeling alone. I've been taking out all this anger on my parents and the world.
I'm just done with medication anyway. I had to take three god damn medications every night that honestly didn't even help much anyway as I was still feeling suicidal, having homicidal thoughts, and just freaked out in general. I just want my brain to revert back to it's original self again. It's been so long that I don't even know how it feels. I'm looking forward to it yet I'm terrified.
So yeah it's gonna be a crappy few weeks until I feel "normal" again.
I have no one to talk about this with. No friend, parents, boyfriend, no one. I feel so alone.
I'm just done with medication anyway. I had to take three god damn medications every night that honestly didn't even help much anyway as I was still feeling suicidal, having homicidal thoughts, and just freaked out in general. I just want my brain to revert back to it's original self again. It's been so long that I don't even know how it feels. I'm looking forward to it yet I'm terrified.
So yeah it's gonna be a crappy few weeks until I feel "normal" again.
I have no one to talk about this with. No friend, parents, boyfriend, no one. I feel so alone.