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NeverGoodEnuff

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Sep 28, 2020
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A thread posted yesterday has slammed me so far backwards, I can't say much about it without choking. It hit a very sensitive nerve.

For now and at least the immediate future, I am taking a break from SS.
No future and it's my own damned fault and I don't know what made me think this would ever get better.

I wish you all healing.
 
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I'm sorry to hear this @NeverGoodEnuff and i hope you take the time you need and come back.
 
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Dec 20, 2019
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I'm so sorry :heart: Whether you choose to return or not, I wish you all of the best.
 
x~Sophia~x

x~Sophia~x

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Sep 10, 2020
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So sorry, I hope you find some peace and come back when you're feeling better. :hug:
 
cii

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"Well, it's groundhog day. Again."
Oct 24, 2020
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I read the thread and I completely understand how you feel. It aggravates me as well to see something like that posted here of all places, not to mention the smug behaviour from that person too. I'm very sorry. Please remember that person does not represent everyone here, if anyone at all, and please do not let them bring you down like that. It's not like what they said. You are doing your best and it's not on you if things don't work out after that, you did everything you could. You do have a chance at a future if you want it, your past has not taken that away from you and neither has your present. You have every reason to be upset, you're not 'too broken' because you feel that way, it's a very human reaction.
I wish you healing as well friend, and if you choose to come back, I look forward to healing with you. Hope you will be alright.
 
MichaelNomad123

MichaelNomad123

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Oct 15, 2020
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Breaks are good. It acts as lifes punctuation.
 
_Kaira_

_Kaira_

This Isn't Fine
Oct 2, 2020
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Just read that thread. Definently didn't make me feel any better especially after an unpleasant interaction with someone less than 30 mins ago..

With that being said, hope you feel better.:heart:
 
x~Sophia~x

x~Sophia~x

Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
Sep 10, 2020
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Just read that thread. Definently didn't make me feel any better especially after an unpleasant interaction with someone less than 30 mins ago..

With that being said, hope you feel better.:heart:

Which thread is this please?
 
_Kaira_

_Kaira_

This Isn't Fine
Oct 2, 2020
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Which thread is this please?

Recent one in my postings, less than an hour ago. It was pretty short, but definitely left me confused and taken aback. They put me on ignore for some reason.

EDIT: was not really wanting to link it but here. As I said, I don't even know what I did but say 1 word they didn't like.
 
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Feb 13, 2020
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I'm sorry someone here makes you feel that way. Be safe!
 
Giraffey

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Mar 7, 2020
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I've just read the thread myself to get some context, I was away from the site when it was posted. Deep sigh. I was speaking to somebody only this morning about the concept of toxic positivity; in-essence, the idea that everything can be fixed by adopting the right frame of mind. Whilst I would defend the innocence of the poster's intentions, to me, their thread was a shining example of the aforementioned quixoticity.

I know all too well how gut-wrenching it can be, particularly when you're feeling vulnerable at the fledgeling stages of recovery, to read something that appears to confirm everything you loathe and despise about yourself as if to say "yes, you can recover, you're just not trying hard enough". Again, I wouldn't like to argue that's what they meant, but in generalising their post and framing it as advice as opposed to just telling their personal story, that's sadly how I interpreted it.

I don't know if you're going to come back @NeverGoodEnuff, either way, I truly hope that you weren't driven to doing something impulsive, to feel compelled to such an act of despair as a result of what you'd read, that to me would be a terrible tragedy. Sometimes it's good to have a break away from this place, I've taken one or two myself over the months and returned with my energy renewed.

If you do return, I hope you'll find the same sense of renewal, and since this is in recovery, may I be so bold as to say, hope - because damn, a life without hope is no life.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

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@SlowMo,

You nailed it exactly.
 
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