Venting Still realized

[nsaidsmil]

Had an amazing night but suddenly in the quiet at home, I remembered how much I love you. I lie to myself every day for the best. I know you don't care but I need new mascara. I'm tired of it clumping and clouding my vision. Running. I hope life sends me better mascara. Makeup that doesn't bleed, mascara that doesn't tear the rest. Sorry guys. A lot of thoughts tonight. Lot of honesty with myself. Deep down I am still struggling. Not really sure if another thread is in order or appropriate. for that I really apologize. If you're reading this, I love you and I don't mean to distress anyone.
GOD, how the fuck do I get past SI? I cant stand this anymore. My instinct to breathe ruling over my desire to breathe is a fucked up type of prank I'm convinced. I tried but I couldn't do it even though I want to so bad. I can't live like this anymore.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

You sound like you are really hurting. I am sorry for what you are going through :(

 

[nsaidsmil]

You sound like you are really hurting. I am sorry for what you are going through :(

Thank you dear, sorry for the messy thread. Love you so much. Sending u all my heart and strength.
God I need this to happen tonight. So sorry. trying really hard. To get my path straight,

 

[Lostandfound7]

Had an amazing night but suddenly in the quiet at home, I remembered how much I love you. I lie to myself every day for the best. I know you don't care but I need new mascara. I'm tired of it clumping and clouding my vision. Running. I hope life sends me better mascara. Makeup that doesn't bleed, mascara that doesn't tear the rest. Sorry guys. A lot of thoughts tonight. Lot of honesty with myself. Deep down I am still struggling. Not really sure if another thread is in order or appropriate. for that I really apologize. If you're reading this, I love you and I don't mean to distress anyone.
GOD, how the fuck do I get past SI? I cant stand this anymore. My instinct to breath ruling over my desire to breath is a fucked up type of prank I'm convinced. I tried but I couldn't do it even though I want to so bad. I can't live like this anymore.

I feel ur pain my love..I'm here for u..a broken heart + clumping mascara= sux..continue to pour out ur heart. It's safe here beautiful..

 

[nsaidsmil]

I feel ur pain my love..I'm here for u..a broken heart + clumping mascara= sux..continue to pour out ur heart. It's safe here beautiful..

Thank you so much. Love you so so much. & Thank you for the words, will carry them with me always.
<3
God I am so sorry but I am trying again, Sorry, I dont think it will be successful because I'm too cowardly, but I cant live like this anymore.