Venting Still can't fucking do it.

[UnluckyBastard]

I still have my gun. I still practice dry firing. I still can't fucking kill myself because I'm a coward. It's like as soon as it's loaded my mind creates copes just to try and not do it. I hate my human survival instincts. I wish there was a way to turn them off

 

[Kalista]

i feel you

i'm sorry

 

[justwannadip]

I feel you. I really just need to go

 

[legoshi]

Bought SN a month or so ago. Still haven't had the courage to do it. I find evey little thing I can to hold on, I'm like oh maybe one day this or one day that will happen and make me happy. Yet, there have been years of experiences that let me know that's never going to happen. Yet, I'm still grasping for hope.

 

[deathproof17]

A part of you isn't suicidal and wants to live. That's not a bad thing. You have things in life worth living for.

 

[Marco77]

It's normal, you're just scared. Change scares people.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I still have my gun. I still practice dry firing. I still can't fucking kill myself because I'm a coward. It's like as soon as it's loaded my mind creates copes just to try and not do it. I hate my human survival instincts. I wish there was a way to turn them off

Same for me