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overkill
Student
- Jul 18, 2018
- 132
I am here, still alive. I still have no friends because of autism. But I also have the N sitting in the cupboard. So what am I gonna do? I feel like if I survive (I can't even imagine dying) that I will lose my job or become a cripple, brain-damaged and dependent of others. Right now, I am pretty healthy and I got a OK job. No friends, never had friends. But hanging in there. I would like to die, but I am afraid. I am happy I got the N sitting there, in case things take a turn to the worse and I am pushed over the edge. But right now, I am reluctant. Can I even die?