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CarbonMonoxide

CarbonMonoxide

Marejeo ni ngamani
Oct 13, 2019
371
I discovered this forum almost four years ago. After all this time, learning about the best suicide methods, befriending (and losing) members and pouring my heart out, I still can't do it.

Others have come and gone while I continue to dilly dally. However, life is still a dirty mess of suffering and anguish. What am I waiting for?
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I discovered this forum almost four years ago. After all this time, learning about the best suicide methods, befriending (and losing) members and pouring my heart out, I still can't do it.

Others have come and gone while I continue to dilly dally. However, life is still a dirty mess of suffering and anguish. What am I waiting for?
Hi, sometimes we get caught up in our daily routines and habits. Also survival instinct is very difficult to over come. And the fear of death as all beings are programmed to fear death at all cost and survive no matter what. It's just really difficult to do
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,109
In my case, I have been suicidal for a long time, I have actually never wanted to be alive, but of course I am still here. In my case it is the fear of failing ctb and the lack of peaceful and reliable way to exit. I believe that it is not easy to leave this world. The survival instinct can be determined to keep us suffering. Living a miserable existence can be dreadful and more than anything I wish I was never born. I wish you the best
 
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