Starting to think i have some sort of a personality thing

[blank_slab]

Sorry for weird sounding title but every day i start to think more and more i might have some sort of a personality disorder because i'm often known to be an energetic guy who has no problems but sometimes i kinda enter this zone where my thought process is 100% different this may sound weird but the best way i can describe it is that half the time i'm and energetic golden retriever who loves people and doesn't have any thoughts going on in their brain and the other times i'm a turtle that has lived for centuries who has seen the horror of man and just want to finally be released from his eternal hell so um yeah right now i'm in the energetic half so this is all kinda spastic without any real thought and i'm sure when i go into that other zone i'll read back on this and think something along the lines of "my god past me was so dumb to post something like this now everyone will think i'm some weirdo" but right now i want to enjoy my thoughtless (kinda) happy train ride (train ride meaning my thoughts idk why I use that terminology i havent even been on a train before lol) oh also sorry for the long read i'm just spitting out my thoughts

 

[Decided98]

You should get tested for BPD

 

[blank_slab]

You should get tested for BPD

Holy crap i just looked up what that is that would make so much damn sense it explains literally every weird personality thing i have going on like how my mood shifts all the time and how I'm always terrified of being alone jesums this would explain everything but the problem is i don't have a means to a mental health professional at this moment in time

 

[Sadbrains]

As much as I hate doctors, this is something you should go get help with to get a diagnosis if possible. It's step 1 into learning how to cope with it. As the above reply said though, it does sound to line up with BPD. It doesn't make you weird at all.

 

[blank_slab]

Oh my gosh the more I read the more i realize i probably do in fact have bpd i've always thought I was just crazy all this time I never thought I would have a name for the problem with my brain i always assumed i was just being paranoid jesus I've never felt so relieved i could cry its just so nice to finally have a name for this thank you

 

[MyLifeisHell]

BPD? What you wrote sounds like bipolar.

 

[jaxxon_sunn]

I feel the same way and I think I have bpd. Especially the part about thinking my previous self is dumb or cringe which is why I delete a ton of old stuff i regret. Or I think I'll regret it and delete it.

 

[Decided98]

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Holy crap i just looked up what that is that would make so much damn sense it explains literally every weird personality thing i have going on like how my mood shifts all the time and how I'm always terrified of being alone jesums this would explain everything but the problem is i don't have a means to a mental health professional at this moment in time

I think have have BPD or something with slightly the same symptoms too or just very depressed with other issues looking more into it