Venting Starting to plan my methods

[Tasdevil]

I am at peace with my choice to CBT later this year. I am hoping to be able to use SN but if I can't get everything needed before the time I am fully ready to use SN. If not I opt for my backup method of hanging. I will go somewhere where I am not going to found for several hours so either method should work. I haven't decided a actual date yet but July is what I aiming for at this stage. I know my choice will upset people however they ain't living in my shoes. I have been suicidal since I was 13 year old I have had previous attempts but not with the two methods I am going with. I overdosed on medication on time and all that happened was I slept for more than 20 hours and when I woke up I was very groggy my other attempt if you can call it was slashing my wrist which just got me sent to the emergency department and they didn't admit me to a mental ward. I will update this post when and if I am able to get everything needed for the SN method. At least with SN it Won't be as ugly to find me as it would be from hanging. The weird thing is I found someone who hanged themselves and it's 50/50 that I will go the same way 14 years later.

 

[goomsoom]

Knowing you can exit peacefully when you want is very relieving. Hanging can be bit tricky because of SI.

 

[Ghost2211]

I hope you find relief from suffering. We are here for you while you wait for the bus.

 

[Tasdevil]

Knowing you can exit peacefully when you want is very relieving. Hanging can be bit tricky because of SI.

true hanging does pose risk especially if SI but hopefully if I do use that method I pass out quickly enough.

 

[TAW122]

I hope you find peace from suffering in whichever method you decide to pursue, whether it is SN or hanging.

For me, I've decided to go via the firearm as it's the most reliable way to CTB (would be even messier than hanging and SN, but it's the best I have in my circumstances).