Started getting ready for soon ctb

[Source Energy]

Today I got over another major resistance: sending away my savings. My mother is still living in my native country. She knows all about my ctb, and all the pain why. She even asked me to order SN for her too, for when she is ready. So during this month I will be gradually transfering her my savings. I already started today. Before I was not ready to do this. I'm getting close now.
Today I will be ordering SN for her, and domperidone and propranolol for me. As well as a gram scale and a measuring cup. A month tops, maybe not even that, and I'm outta here.
It's getting real.

 

[Fl4u]

Your mother supports you ctb?

 

[FuneralCry]

At least you have someone who respects your decision. But anyway, I can imagine that it must be a relief knowing that it's all coming to an end, I wish you the best.

 

[missingpeace]

Wow, you are so lucky... If my mother supported me in my ctb, it would be so amazing.

 

[Source Energy]

Your mother supports you ctb?

Yes. She knows the unbearable pain and the circumstances I'm in. It took months of long conversations, and she is sad that I'm leaving, but she accept it. She wants to stay up to 3 more years.

Wow, you are so lucky... If my mother supported me in my ctb, it would be so amazing.

It wasn't easy. She had a loooot of resistance : Gawd, hell, it's a sin, you have to keep hoping, what am I gonna do without you ( I have a brother but not very close, so she has him), stuff like that. I removed them all one by one by detailed explanations and justifications. She nows sees it. Living like this is hell for me.

It also helps that me and my mom were always super close. I never kept secrets from her even as a teen. I always felt I could tell her anything. I have been blessed with the best mother possible - and I told her that.

At least you have someone who respects your decision. But anyway, I can imagine that it must be a relief knowing that it's all coming to an end, I wish you the best.

thank you. Getting my affairs in order. Hopefully by the end of the month, my suffering will be over. I'll be following that protocol to a T!