Not very familiar with navigating forums, so feel free to point out if I've done something wrong. If you're not as familiar with KN, you can answer as if it's for SN, since their procedures are similar enough from my understanding. Also feel free to skip any that you are unsure about.
I'm going to be killing myself roughly in a couple weeks; just waiting for the KN while preparing a few final things. For the most part, I have a solid understanding of the necessary precautions / procedures to maximize my chances of success, but there are still some inquiries I have that I haven't been able to find the answers to:
1. Would it be a good idea to implement anxiety medication (hydroxyzine) into the protocol? Or even just taking a bunch right before consuming the KN? I only have over-the-counter stuff to work with in terms of vomitting meds, but I've always been pretty good with holding out in that regard, so I'm not as concerned about it. Still, the logic behind this consideration is mostly just that passing out sooner would be ideal, and hydroxyzine is supposed to make you sleepy I believe.
2. Upon consuming the KN, roughly how long do you think it would take before I'd be beyond "saving"? Like, if a hiker found me and called the cops 5-10 minutes after consumption (though it is unlikely they'd be able to inform them that it was KN I took), would they be able to get to me in time? Or would it already be too late?
3. What are the chances of the KN being seized at customs (and by extension, the police opening an investigation or a welfare check)? I am ordering internationally, from the UK to the US, but I'm also aware that KN is still not nearly as popular of a method as SN, so that leads me to presume that there's not as much of a risk of it being flagged? It's also being mailed to my university campus, but I've looked into their policies, and I doubt there will be much concern in that regard. I suppose I probably should still prepare an excuse in advance, but KN's uses are so obnoxiously niche that I'm concerned my half-assed explanation wouldn't be very convincing (especially since I live in a college dorm).
4. I've accepted that if I succeed, investigators are going to thoroughly check my devices. Though, any information I've found beyond that in terms of what they do with said data seems to be pretty vague / inconsistent. Will they give my family access to things such as search history, account passwords (including throwaways), etc? Will any of it be released publicly? Beyond my personal discomfort with the blatant breach of privacy, I just don't think it would be good for my parents at all to have that level of access those things. It wouldn't really give them the closure I'm sure they'd like to think it would; on the contrary, I think it would do nothing but dent their perception of me and generate even more questions than it would answer. But I'm also admittedly very hesitant to outright destroy my devices (I've always struggled w getting rid of things), especially by the very off chance that I do survive. I'm being very cautious as to ensure that minimal long-term consequences will occur under that circumstance.
I'm going to be killing myself roughly in a couple weeks; just waiting for the KN while preparing a few final things. For the most part, I have a solid understanding of the necessary precautions / procedures to maximize my chances of success, but there are still some inquiries I have that I haven't been able to find the answers to:
1. Would it be a good idea to implement anxiety medication (hydroxyzine) into the protocol? Or even just taking a bunch right before consuming the KN? I only have over-the-counter stuff to work with in terms of vomitting meds, but I've always been pretty good with holding out in that regard, so I'm not as concerned about it. Still, the logic behind this consideration is mostly just that passing out sooner would be ideal, and hydroxyzine is supposed to make you sleepy I believe.
2. Upon consuming the KN, roughly how long do you think it would take before I'd be beyond "saving"? Like, if a hiker found me and called the cops 5-10 minutes after consumption (though it is unlikely they'd be able to inform them that it was KN I took), would they be able to get to me in time? Or would it already be too late?
3. What are the chances of the KN being seized at customs (and by extension, the police opening an investigation or a welfare check)? I am ordering internationally, from the UK to the US, but I'm also aware that KN is still not nearly as popular of a method as SN, so that leads me to presume that there's not as much of a risk of it being flagged? It's also being mailed to my university campus, but I've looked into their policies, and I doubt there will be much concern in that regard. I suppose I probably should still prepare an excuse in advance, but KN's uses are so obnoxiously niche that I'm concerned my half-assed explanation wouldn't be very convincing (especially since I live in a college dorm).
4. I've accepted that if I succeed, investigators are going to thoroughly check my devices. Though, any information I've found beyond that in terms of what they do with said data seems to be pretty vague / inconsistent. Will they give my family access to things such as search history, account passwords (including throwaways), etc? Will any of it be released publicly? Beyond my personal discomfort with the blatant breach of privacy, I just don't think it would be good for my parents at all to have that level of access those things. It wouldn't really give them the closure I'm sure they'd like to think it would; on the contrary, I think it would do nothing but dent their perception of me and generate even more questions than it would answer. But I'm also admittedly very hesitant to outright destroy my devices (I've always struggled w getting rid of things), especially by the very off chance that I do survive. I'm being very cautious as to ensure that minimal long-term consequences will occur under that circumstance.
