You're not bothering anyone. However, I would strongly advise against an attempt to ctb on prescription drugs unless you are certain the dosage(s)/combination will have the desired effect. As others have pointed out already, there's a very high chance of this simply landing you in hospital, possibly with a whole bunch of consequences you do NOT want. Don't let that happen.
If you are absolutely positive about wanting to ctb, you'll be able to figure out a better, safer method with the information available here.
But most importantly: reach out to others here, talk. And then give yourself some time to think this through. But don't act on impulse, or while being unprepared or not informed. You owe that to yourself.