Sooo empty soo done

[Livingvsdying25]

Went to finalize the place no doubt I'm moving
Yay!!!
I feel so empty and I dunno dad I guess. It's soo community social sharing live exc.

Funny bc it's exactly what I need.
I just set not want this life AT ALL

I'm not excited about having to fake it but gotta do what I gotta do meh

I want to CTB ASAP.

pilled it up today. . Was in an Uber. Felt like I was gonna puke but basicallyfor 30 secs or so

doesn't faze me just glad I didn't thro up as I haven't really eaten much in 2 days. Sometimes it just feels better that way.

I hate everything. I want I leave this earth soon. Hopefully not alone so.
I have hard work to do.

 

[Squiddy]

I know how you feel. I also want to leave this Earth soon, though am too much of a coward to end it so I hope a meteor hits this Earth and only wipes me out.

 

[TowerUpright]

I'm becoming so mixed. I really want to CTB, but other things get in the way that need to happen first, before that happens (kids out of house, etc.)

I really just need to pick a date and do it.

 

[Farmmaa]

Went to finalize the place no doubt I'm moving
Yay!!!
I feel so empty and I dunno dad I guess. It's soo community social sharing live exc.

Funny bc it's exactly what I need.
I just set not want this life AT ALL

I'm not excited about having to fake it but gotta do what I gotta do meh

I want to CTB ASAP.

pilled it up today. . Was in an Uber. Felt like I was gonna puke but basicallyfor 30 secs or so

doesn't faze me just glad I didn't thro up as I haven't really eaten much in 2 days. Sometimes it just feels better that way.

I hate everything. I want I leave this earth soon. Hopefully not alone so.
I have hard work to do.

Maybe … just maybe, the move will be the change you need to help your life improve?
At least give it a try... it can't hurt, right ?!

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Maybe … just maybe, the move will be the change you need to help your life improve?
At least give it a try... it can't hurt, right ?!

honestly I'm just excited to get away. Being with my mom makes me feel awful and trapped in many ways.I could never attempt to CTB there.
I want a chance to CTB not live... sorry

I'm becoming so mixed. I really want to CTB, but other things get in the way that need to happen first, before that happens (kids out of house, etc.)

I really just need to pick a date and do it.

seomtimes life just goes into full gear when trying to plan. It's interesting

 

[Livingvsdying25]

I am at my dads and feel just as unwanted as my moms holy shit.
My brother has so much ducking contempt for me in regards to the move or just in general now.

The fucking family emotional
Scapegoats I am so fucking depressed

won't be able to move till prob next week Sunday don't really have the money to hire movers and would've really preferred to tho.

My brother has the nerve to get mad at me while telling eme he tried to SELL MY DRESSER last yr. (I didn't know a thing about that but of course.

"I'mtrying21 is not tryi nag hard enough she's too emotional it's all her fault. She's moving just to espcapw and like allher other moves it's gonna be a big mistake that we'll have to help clean up."

god I have no worth with my family and I'm ready to move and at least feel some fake effort from workers or whatever


I really wanna jump.
Think ima rush and push myself to move this Sunday. I'm not sure I can take another week of this.

I get it and I suck in a lot of ways but I'm just trying....

Tbh I'd just spend most of the week deunk or something. I need not spend money but when I get there I'll have all I need or whatever sooo I dunno tbh
Either way I can't wait to get away. Wanna die on my own terms.
Feel so heavy.

I'm not sure where to turn rn for love.I'm sorry to say but I guess I jus need a little these days.

 

[Takemenowplease]

Me too, I can not go on any further. I feel like I have no other choice. I want to ctb asap. I feel so lonely right now, I feel like nobody understand the pain that I'm enduring. The love of my life just left me, I can not continue life without her or seing her with someone else