Throwmyselfaway
Not gone yet but soon
- Jan 14, 2020
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I think it's gonna be in the next week or two for my bus. Every since being diagnosed with ptsd I've been going down hill extremely fast. The more I remember from my childhood the worse I get. Add in financial issues and this whole lock down shit and the fact that I don't know how long my job will last, I'm pretty much done. I think about ctb most of the day every day. I have full on panic attacks when i wake up that feel like I'm having a heart attack. I wish i was that lucky. I plan to use sn. The other day I caught myself staring at my gun but I won't use that. I've been double checking stans guide. I have everything I need. Just need to decide when. This has been a long time coming.