EmotionlessWanderer
Specialist
- Jan 19, 2019
- 352
I'm going to CTB either tomorrow or Tuesday. I've only been here for maybe a little over a week but all of you have been the most understanding people I have came across in years especially on the internet.
My reasons for doing so I believe I have stated before. I have Autisim which causes me to mentally and socially struggle in this world. I literally can't take it anymore. And I find no value in anything this life offers to be worth the pain.
Everyday I feel more empty and alien on this earth. If I told anyone of my reasons they would think I'm batshit crazy when that's not the cause even if they knew I am autistic. I thought about this for a while and gave myself various chances at life. It doesn't do it for me plain and bloody simple.
I hope and believe that the afterlife is a world where I can connect to and be myself without worry. Where I won't feel alienated left and right. A place where I can finally ease my flawed mind instead of constantly fighting with it.
If I don't post anything on Wednesday then consider me dead. I'm making this ahead of time because I'm going to leave my phone behind when I check in to a hotel so no one can find me.
I wish you all the best of luck in both this flawed world and the beyond.
My reasons for doing so I believe I have stated before. I have Autisim which causes me to mentally and socially struggle in this world. I literally can't take it anymore. And I find no value in anything this life offers to be worth the pain.
Everyday I feel more empty and alien on this earth. If I told anyone of my reasons they would think I'm batshit crazy when that's not the cause even if they knew I am autistic. I thought about this for a while and gave myself various chances at life. It doesn't do it for me plain and bloody simple.
I hope and believe that the afterlife is a world where I can connect to and be myself without worry. Where I won't feel alienated left and right. A place where I can finally ease my flawed mind instead of constantly fighting with it.
If I don't post anything on Wednesday then consider me dead. I'm making this ahead of time because I'm going to leave my phone behind when I check in to a hotel so no one can find me.
I wish you all the best of luck in both this flawed world and the beyond.