Party's Fall by Siouxsie and the Banshees (Tinderbox album)
I might have the actual meaning incorrect, but when I heard the song, the first part was about trying to make life okay and coping via distractions, socializing, hobbies, whatever. And your mind going bonkers from crushing failures and trying to bounce back un-jaded from those crushing experiences. I like how the music changes, especially for the last part:
Glad rags sigh, maybe you're alone.
Maybe you're alone inside, don't hide
Hurting all the time, hurting deep inside
Don't cry, don't cry
My happiness depends on knowing
This friend is never alone
On your own, a party on our own
We'll have a party on our own, inside
No sighs, don't cry, don't cry.
The sad part is that through the worst parts of my life, either family or friend caused the problem or I've received only blame, criticism, guilt, or abandonment from them. Never support. So in dealing with the actual pain, instead of "on our own", it's been "on my own". Unlike what some friends think, I don't need anyone to fix my life; I've been able to survive enough things on my own, even help people with their issues. But I'm tired of coping with my next crushing blow on my own. Hence, my username.