Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
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An Instagram reel talking about the benefits of going back to go forward popped up a few days ago
It honestly made me smile watching it and reflect
Since I've come to see how toxic things are at home, I beat myself up for having gone back home years ago. How I didn't listen to people who told me my dad would never change/doesn't care (I don't know if I still entirely agree with that sentiment/maybe it's the trauma talking) but, maybe I needed to see how bad things truly were again to move on
And now I am going to college this September away from everyone
I'll still be in close proximity so if I ever need a home cooked meal or some assistance that will be present
But I'll be away and be able to focus on me again. Just worried about dealing with roomate conflict
It honestly made me smile watching it and reflect
Since I've come to see how toxic things are at home, I beat myself up for having gone back home years ago. How I didn't listen to people who told me my dad would never change/doesn't care (I don't know if I still entirely agree with that sentiment/maybe it's the trauma talking) but, maybe I needed to see how bad things truly were again to move on
And now I am going to college this September away from everyone
I'll still be in close proximity so if I ever need a home cooked meal or some assistance that will be present
But I'll be away and be able to focus on me again. Just worried about dealing with roomate conflict