torturedbylife
Enemy of the world
- May 2, 2020
- 130
Since I am in a very bad place where I truly have no one and where I'm mostly ostracized. From time to time I see people doing something kind for me or giving me attention. Here's the weird thing: when that happens to me, I see that person in an exaggerately positive light and I think about the moment a lot and even analyzing it. I'm thinking ''what if I was friends with that person?''. I even imagine talking or doing things with that person. Even though nowadays most kind acts aren't done just for the sake of being kind anymore. Am I just fucked up at this point?