Something weird

[torturedbylife]

Since I am in a very bad place where I truly have no one and where I'm mostly ostracized. From time to time I see people doing something kind for me or giving me attention. Here's the weird thing: when that happens to me, I see that person in an exaggerately positive light and I think about the moment a lot and even analyzing it. I'm thinking ''what if I was friends with that person?''. I even imagine talking or doing things with that person. Even though nowadays most kind acts aren't done just for the sake of being kind anymore. Am I just fucked up at this point?

 

[SpareWheel]

No. You still look for the good in people and try to think positive things even when you're low yourself. Just means you're a decent soul that hasn't yet been turned rancid and cynical.

Don't worry about it too much, it just shows inside you're one of the good people still. Worry when that goes but don't ever overthink it while you still have some positivity left in you.