Something about my personality gets me in trouble

[Susannah]

Hi,
Lately I've been thinking how come bad things tend to happen to me, in particular. I live a small place in a small, rich country, and naturally I compare with those around me. It's like having this bad omen hanging over me. I have written here earlier about being in a serious accident.

My insane mother started a started a compensation case, but the lawyer did not do his job, and I ended up with a bill of five thousand dollars.

My new lawyer sued old lawyer because of this, and now I have been informed that my apartment will be forcibly sold within four months. I do not understand anything.

I've also written earlier about this man I met. He turned out to be a psychopath and alcoholic, and I have been trying to get him out of my life for almost 1 year. Still, he sends threatening messages daily, comes to the door, crying and drunk, and constantly makes noise in my life.

I have been in contact with the police, but they do not have the capacity to help me. At least as long as he does not harm me physically.

Now I wonder if there is something about me that makes me end up in these tragic situations? I'm a typical good girl. Trying to be nice and do things according to the book.

Any advice to avoid getting in trouble would be appreciated.

Lots of loveS

 

[TriggerHappy]

I feel for you.
I used to constantly question myself, my behaviors and my motivations when my life used to basically. fucking. implode.
I always found the fault to be mine (low self-esteem)
On a different level, but not so much :: when a friend (that i was meant to be driving with) died in a car wreck, my guide told me there was no predestined time / reason for it.
Some things (in God's awesome design - note sarcasm pls) are chaos.
"Trying to be nice etc etc" can get you seriously fucked up.
Be more vengeful, even for yourself. Its a way of treating yrself in a loving manner.
Fuck it You're on a suicide site asking about whether we deserve our lives?? Oh honey....!
Love & Respect
XM // Trigger

 

[Susannah]

I feel for you.
I used to constantly question myself, my behaviors and my motivations when my life used to basically. fucking. implode.
I always found the fault to be mine (low self-esteem)
On a different level, but not so much :: when a friend (that i was meant to be driving with) died in a car wreck, my guide told me there was no predestined time / reason for it.
Some things (in God's awesome design - note sarcasm pls) are chaos.
"Trying to be nice etc etc" can get you seriously fucked up.
Be more vengeful, even for yourself. Its a way of treating yrself in a loving manner.
Fuck it You're on a suicide site asking about whether we deserve our lives?? Oh honey....!
Love & Respect
XM // Trigger

Yeah, I guess I'm being too nice/ stupid. Thanks for writing back. I'll start to think more about my own well- being, and less about others missery.

 

[TriggerHappy]

Yeah, I guess I'm being too nice/ stupid. Thanks for writing back. I'll start to think more about my own well- being, and less about others missery.

Yes, life is a happy mad carnival ride into the abbatoir...
No. You misunderstand me, I fear (dont takeitpersonally, happens a lot!)
Or maybe i misunderstand you. I'm withdrawing so a bit mentally clouded (not deluded, not yet...)
My point ::
Nothing Fucking Makes Sense
So don't go self-destructing.
You're a beautiful & worthwhile person inspite of the screwed-up shit that happens in your life... took me decades to learn that, and I still doubt. No matter how hard you look you won't find reasons ::
Don't stare into the abyss too long, something stares back
(the same goes for magic circles btw)

Of all the things in God's design, chaos might be collateral damage... snd what we deserve are perfect family Christmases, (sarcasm, again) but you are perfect... in spite of how you see yourself.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

I'd say be a lot more cautious about whom you let into your life. When you're kind hearted in nature, the wrong kind of people can sniff that out and take advantage of it. Learn to recognize and back away immediately from any signs that give you cause for concern with any given individual. As Trigger said above me, look out for YOU first. Best way to survive.

P.S. You seem like a good soul and I am terribly sorry you have to go through this. I feel your pain. Truly.

I feel for you.
I used to constantly question myself, my behaviors and my motivations when my life used to basically. fucking. implode.
I always found the fault to be mine (low self-esteem)
On a different level, but not so much :: when a friend (that i was meant to be driving with) died in a car wreck, my guide told me there was no predestined time / reason for it.
Some things (in God's awesome design - note sarcasm pls) are chaos.
"Trying to be nice etc etc" can get you seriously fucked up.
Be more vengeful, even for yourself. Its a way of treating yrself in a loving manner.
Fuck it You're on a suicide site asking about whether we deserve our lives?? Oh honey....!
Love & Respect
XM // Trigger

Annnnnnd this is why I LOVE most of your posts. Straightforward, to the point and funny as hell. You have a great way with words.

 

[TriggerHappy]

Annnnnnd this is why I LOVE most of your posts. Straightforward, to the point and funny as hell. You have a great way with words.

And not hijacking this thread, but (my) humour, like a sexually transmitted disease, is best shared with those you love...
And 99% of the time we don't deserve the shit we're given (unless it's a horny model with their own drugs & lift home...)

 

[darkwater]

You might want to buy a pepper gun. That would definitely knock the bastard out should he try to do anything, unless you are from the U.S.

 

[Susannah]

Thanks to you all, I actually managed to get out of bed, go to the store, and put on the tv.

I still get 100s of messages pr hour from the maniac (I've blocked him, og course, but I decided to keep them in case of emergency), but I don't read them at all.

I wish everyone love.
Lots of loveS

 

[timf]

Police like the reputation of preventing crime. However, they are limited to collecting evidence after a crime has been committed and detaining suspects. If someone is bothering you repeatedly, you can usually get a court order (sometimes called a restraining order) which the police can then use to intervene. You can call your local courthouse and ask to talk with a court clerk to find out the procedure in your jurisdiction.

 

[Susannah]

You might want to buy a pepper gun. That would definitely knock the bastard out should he try to do anything, unless you are from the U.S.

I'm from Norway. We're not aloud to protect our selves. Pepper gun/ spray are forbidden to use or buy. Even carrying small knifes can get you in trouble with the law