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ctemourge

ctemourge

and by the time ur hearing this ill already b gone
Aug 14, 2023
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trigger warning to those who need:
self harm mention/ insinuation • drug use
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i head to bed fairly early

nothing special its just my medication.

but all the fun seems to happen as i rest

so ive stayed up. and up and up.

and asked around for plans.

only to be met with silence and a blank screen

doesn't the fun happen after hours?

how come when im awake its silent?

as soon as i close my eyes the city will wake

its almost like they wait for me to sleep

im not meant to enjoy this life.

im just meant to live it.

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i cant snort a line although its craved

but ill carve and create new lines

that bring just as much worry

nothing changed just the font

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undone again

ur thread finally wore out

now i hold on to the threadless needle

n the gaping wound in my heart

waiting paitently to be whole again
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i repainted the walls

removed every trace of you

and yet u somehow end up

making me tear up at the thought

of what we couldove been.

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when will the rain pass

&

the flowers start to bloom again

in the cracks you dug

into your own soil

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its like sitting and waiting for a fire to start cus ur so used to ur house burning down
being used to the warmth because i am tired of the cold
id rather be embraced by the flames then be alone and shivering
id rather clean up my own blood instead of bleeding out waiting for you to notice
why is it so hard to accept when someone hands over the bandages?
how am i supposed to trust that the sutures youve sewn will hold?
im not very talented but these are some that i really like
 
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Ozzyno

Ozzyno

Lovely loner.
Oct 10, 2024
178
I was just reading poetry today… it's been a couple of hard days for me and I am going back into reading some Italian poet that you probably don't know but he's great. Really pessimistic view over the world but whatever ahahahah

Poetry in English lacks something I don't know… but you sound original so I like it 👍🏻
 
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ctemourge

ctemourge

and by the time ur hearing this ill already b gone
Aug 14, 2023
112
I was just reading poetry today… it's been a couple of hard days for me and I am going back into reading some Italian poet that you probably don't know but he's great. Really pessimistic view over the world but whatever ahahahah

Poetry in English lacks something I don't know… but you sound original so I like it 👍🏻
thank you so much<3 whats the italian poets name?
 
residualf00l

residualf00l

Hey, Lets Despair
Oct 29, 2023
27
makes me wanna post my own,,
 
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never_take_my_heart

never_take_my_heart

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Nov 9, 2024
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Ah, the first one in particular "hits" exceptionally hard, haha... I truly love it. Thank you for sharing. 🫂
 
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CaliguIa

CaliguIa

im pathetic :)
Sep 1, 2024
33
I really liked it, thanks for sharing ❤️
 
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viljalauss

viljalauss

he/they 22
Aug 22, 2023
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mm i really liked all of these but especially the last two <33 thank you for sharing
 
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